Well I never thought I would actually be this stressed about finals week, I had always believed it to be an over dramatized college myth, nope the stress is real. I spent all day studying for a class I have a solid A in, and now I will study until about 11 or 11:30 that for no matter what I do I will have a B in the class so there’s that too. I do not see myself pulling any all-nighters because I really don’t believe that helps anything at all. I think it’s been so stressful for me because of my panic attacks lately and they really aren’t going to get any better anytime soon it seems.
Anyway I’m sitting here studying away for history, and I’m just like wow I really like history. So now I’m like how can I fit this into my college career, I mean I don’t want to be a history major because they can’t do anything. I’m thinking, and thinking and I’m like oooo minor! And then I keep thinking and I’m like wow I really like my communications class too, can I keep that in my outlook somehow, yes, a minor. That would put me at a triple minor and that’s just silly, so now I’m like well I could double major in global issues and political science and then I could minor in history and communications, but that is FOUR things. I can’t do that with my life, no way I’d be able to graduate early with a load like that. So then I’m thinking, really what is another semester? But it’s another semester of being unhappy, which leads me to think: WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?? Why am I at college when I want to do absolutely everything? This doesn’t make sense. So I went from wanting to double major and double minor to wanting to drop out in a split second. I have a lot of thinking to do over break and what it all comes back to is that I should’ve done a gap year. Oh well, what can I do? Nothing now.
Well anyway sorry about that random spurt of nothing useful about my life but finals week is allowing little time for an in depth blog post today, maybe Friday? Hopefully soon there will be something good, I can’t wait! Good luck to anyone else who is taking finals this week!