So if you read my year in review or my 2014 goals you may have read that I lost my resolutions from last year, well in the past week they have been recovered so for today’s post I’m going to evaluate last year’s resolutions and see how I did on them.

1. Get in shape to play Quidditch. Well at this point I thought in my year I assumed that I would have gone to a school with a Quidditch team but I didn’t so I guess I didn’t get in shape for Quidditch, and I guess I didn’t really get in shape at all either, so yeah a fail.
2. Make new friends. Which I think I did at college, I mean maybe I didn’t always pick the best friends but there are a few that I would consider pretty good friends.
3. Learn something new (hobby). Well I’m not sure if I did this or not, I’m trying to think and I guess this blog would be one along with YouTube videos, and I hope to improve on both of these over the next year as well.
4. Give a compliment a day. I probably did this, I mean I usually say something nice to at least one person from I like your shirt to you’re a super cool person.
5. Turn off the radio and talk to God once a day. This was meant to be when I was driving somewhere I would turn off the radio and just talk for a little bit, and I don’t know if I did this in the car everyday, but I do more now because when I drive I drive a lot further. I do on my way to and from school because I get tired of singing so about halfway through I start praying and it helps the drive be less lonely.
6. Try and figure out if “Teach Me” is a realistic idea. Well this was my idea for an NGO in a class project and I thought that I could do that for like a job, but I never looked into it anymore, or if I did I don’t remember doing so, but this would still be a really cool plan if I ever have the money for it.
7. Take a note of thankfulness once a day. Which was an awesome idea, and I think I kind of did that without thinking about it. I mean I’m on a daily basis thankful for my friends and family.
8. Work on blog to improve writing. Now this was a funny goal because last year I had a blog but it was awful, I literally wrote about nothing. I don’t know why I did it to start, it is now deleted (thank goodness) but then I started this blog, which I adore and spend oodles of time on. I hope you guys like it too!
9. Actually wear my nice clothes. Boy was I funny, thought I might dress up for school and I guess I did sometimes but I believe I still mostly wore t-shirts, sweatshirts, yoga pants, and leggings.
10. Get the proper amount of sleep.  What a joke, I don’t see this happening any time soon.
11. Try to remember dreams, both real ones and sleep ones. I think I remember my real ones, I hardly ever remember my sleep ones. My real dreams are being considered whenever I make any sort of decision about the future.
12. Remember to laugh at self. I do this all the time, you can’t have friends like mine and not laugh at yourself.
13. Don’t be afraid. I don’t know what I was afraid of but I took a lot of risks last year, most of them ending badly so I’m not doing that anymore I’m only doing things for myself and things I’m comfortable with.
14. Don’t shut everyone out. I can’t help this. I can’t talk to anyone when I have panic attacks or my anxiety is really bad, no one gets it. It only makes it worse. I have to shut everyone out to get better.
15. Care about others but still think about myself. I think I did this so yeah. 

Okay so I had to stop writing this post to go to work and my dad went seriously downhill from there. I wanted to go to Reading to get clothes for that picture but my mom told me to go to Litiz instead AND THEY WERE CLOSED TO I WASTED GAS TO GO TO A CLOSED TARGET I’M STILL PISSED ABOUT IT! Well anyway anger is one of my anxiety triggers apparently and along with my the bad feelings I have against my body, mixed with a new pair of jeggings felt a little scratchy and too tight with the underwear I was wearing made me actually have a break down. So the last of this was very poorly written and I apologize. These panic attacks keep getting worse and it’s harder to deal with, I hate feeling like I’m losing control of my body. Sometimes I feel like I’m slowly going crazy. I physically cannot write anymore. 

XOXO

Mary

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January 9: 184 in triple overtime.

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January 10: What popular TV chef and cookbook author once worked in the White House as a nuclear energy budget analyst?