I’m trying to be healthy. This is hard. I like fries, but I haven’t eaten them in three weeks. I’m trying to eat less fatty foods, less sugary foods and it’s hard. It’s really hard. Before I came back last week I went food shopping with my family, who is extremely helpful. My dad and I looked at the ingredients on various products trying to find the healthiest options. The most unhealthy thing I purchased was fat free chocolate pudding, which I’m proud to say I have only eaten one of and I ate it over the course of two days in the week five days I’ve been back. I even stopped getting desserts in the dining hall because I don’t even want to know how many calories are in that stuff. As well as stopped drinking soda and other high sugar juices.
However, I’m starting to feel the difference. I feel less icky. All winter I’ve been hiding in my leggings afraid that my jeans might reveal the weight I had gained, well I put them on for the first time in about four months today and they fit just about perfectly, maybe a little snug. These little changes have me a little excited. I’m hoping by the week I go to the beach I’ll feel comfortable in my bikini and the crop top I accidentally bought.
The main reason I’m doing this is so I can feel more confident about myself. I love that I have a figure, but I wouldn’t mind if it got a little smaller. I think that I would just feel more comfortable in my skin if I started eating better and taking better care of myself. There are obviously things I have to do, like learn to like salad. I’m going to try it again at lunch tomorrow (ick). I also need to start exercising but I keep putting it off. A big part of my problem is that I despise sweating. Like half the reason I don’t like the heat is because I sweat. So I think Saturday I’m going to take a morning jog to the Starbucks downtown and use my free drink coupon and get an iced coffee. Maybe I’ll bring a book or my laptop to blog or something. Who knows maybe I’ll even chill out in the cute little park they have here.
I’ve talked a few times about being comfortable in your skin and I think I need to take my own advice. It doesn’t matter if you’re a size 0 or a size 20 as long as you are healthy and happy it’s all that matters. So I’m going to take a step in the right direction, right now I’m anywhere from a size 6-10 (wouldn’t it be nice if companies used the same standards?) and my goal is to be a 4-6 but I’ll probably stick right around the 6 region. I just want to be happier with myself and how I feel. I’m tired of feeling disgusted every time I look in the mirror. I’m tired of crying any time I think about stepping on a scale. So here’s to hoping for a healthier me.
Thanks for reading guys, and I ask for any tips you have for being healthy because I can really use them!
Also tomorrows post will most likely be really late, like 2-3 am due to the fact I’m obligated to go to a school dance. More details on that tomorrow.