My Choice to Stay Sober

To stay sober, or not to drink in college was one I decided as I grew up that if I chose to drink I would wait until I was 21. This has nothing to do with my parents, they drink, we have a bar in our basement, so no this is not religious based or something being forced upon me if that’s what you were wondering. I’m not sure where exactly it started, I think it was the people in high school I saw going to parties and I knew I didn’t want to be like that.

Getting to college this decision became a lot harder. It’s hard to find people who don’t drink, and that’s okay. It’s okay to experiment and drink, I would even say that’s more accepted than making the decision not to. I have yet to go to a party, even though it’s on my goals for the year, I just can’t. My anxiety has made it hard for me to be in rooms with more than six people. I have however been to places where drinking does occur and there are a few people there. I think being around this has made me think about my decision. So far I’ve stuck to my promise to myself, but is underaged drinking something I want to try to get the full college experience?  I don’t know. Sometimes I think it would be something to try and other times I think it would be a mistake. Obviously it’s illegal but most people do try it.

I think part of the reason I don’t want to drink is because I’m afraid I won’t be in control of myself, and that’s not something I want to happen to me. I also keep finding new triggers to my anxiety, add blisters to the list, so what if I had a panic attack while drinking? That’s really scary to me. I think that’s just another deterrent. I’m also very afraid of getting caught, a huge reason that I haven’t been to any parties, I’m afraid of getting arrested.

For the moment I am choosing to be sober. I am choosing to live my life without alcohol. I know this isn’t the popular thing to do, but I think it’s the best decision for me. Maybe this will change over time, maybe it won’t. I think this is a decision that everyone should think about before college or while at college. I think there’s a best decision for every person and you shouldn’t let other people influence that decision, if you want to drink, go for it, if you don’t, don’t let people talk you into drinking. When it comes down to it everyone is responsible for their own decisions and you can’t blame people on “forcing”  you into something. Okay well there are certain instances where you can blame people, but if you are making a decision you can’t blame someone else for your decision. Does that make sense? I hope so.

This just hit me today because it’s a huge drinking weekend here because of May Madness or Spring Fest at a lot of other colleges and it was just on my mind. Thanks for reading my opinions.

XOXO,

Mary.

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3 thoughts on “My Choice to Stay Sober

  1. jonabyjo April 27, 2014 / 1:25 am

    Go you! I think it is great that you have stuck to your own values! If you do decide to try drinking and are worried about what will happen, I strongly suggest you avoid the big parties and just try it with a couple of your good friends. Big parties are fun and are definitely a college experience but you can also attend those sober. :) Sometimes its pretty funny to just watch drunk people. Haha

    • Mary April 27, 2014 / 3:13 pm

      Thanks! Yeah, I feel like the big parties here aren’t even that big, but that’s not where I would want to try anything anyway. Watching drunk people can be more entertaining than Netflix sometimes!

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