You know those days where you just wish you would have never gotten out of bed, that’s today. I mentioned last night that I found out I had a very involved paper and I think it is causing me to feel anxious. Normally on Tuesdays and Thursdays I relax in the student center in between classes so I don’t have to go back to my room but today I walked back through the pouring rain because I forgot my umbrella. I get back to my room and do my work like a good kid, then I head to my next class. Per usual I am the first one there, then this guy walks in, that I know, puts his stuff down and comes over to ask me how I’m doing, which caused me to almost cry. Can someone please tell me why that made me so anxious? Please because I’m very confused about it. So I spent the whole class on edge.
After that I went to get lunch to go because I was upset. I got there got some pasta and hot cup because I wanted to make some coffee, so I put some cream from the dining hall in it because I’m out and I’m paying for theirs anyway. I had my cup and to go box in one hand and the umbrella in the other, do you know where I’m going with this? I freaking dropped it. Yep I dropped my lunch on the ground when I was nearly to my building, losing a cookie (that I didn’t need) my utensils (I’m not sure where they got to) and a meatball. I was not a happy camper.
I ate my lunch or what was left of it and relaxed for a little and went to my next class. It was just torture. I don’t know if it was just boring or if I was too anxious or what. I have spent the rest of my evening on edge trying to write a paper. It is nearly 11 I was just informed that it is my year anniversary on WordPress but I deleted my first blog so I’m going to celebrate on my year anniversary of this blog. Does that make sense? I also found out that I got an “A” in a class that I thought I was gonna get B in so that’s a plus. To make myself feel better I got Subway and Starbucks which made me feel nasous. I blame the stress of school. I have to try and get another page and a half done PLUS transcribe my Arabic homework with correct spelling. What a freaking joke. Wish me luck, hopefully post will improve soon, sorry about the crappy quality the past two days, just let me get through the next week and a half and I should be back to my lengthy responses. Thanks for sticking with me!