The rumors are always flying, and the question is: Is Sweeran real? No, that’s not what this blog post is about, my speculation of Taylor Swift and Ed Sheeran, it’s to express my jealousy of their relationship, what kind of relationship that is, is not my place to judge.
If you know anything about Taylor Swift or Ed Sheeran, you probably know that they are best friends and that they are often speculated to have a relationship. I just want a friend like Ed. Okay maybe I want what they’re speculated to have, maybe I want a boyfriend. Kind of. This comes back to what I not know what I want with anything in my life ever. Maybe I just want a boy to go to iHop with and laugh really loud and obnoxiously with, who I kind of have a crush on and he kind of has a crush on me but we don’t really do anything about it, instead we just kind of hang out and eat and laugh. Is that weird?
I’m 19 and in a few month I’ll be 20, at this point in my mom’s life she would be getting married in a little over a year (I believe she got married at 21, but it might’ve been 22 sorry mom) anyway, she was really close to the age I am at now, that’s the point I’m trying to make. Anywho, I am NOT ready for that serious of a relationship. I like the idea of holding hands and going on walks, not the idea of picking out engagement rings and floral arrangements. Not like there’s anything wrong with that, it’s just not what I want.
What it comes down to is I want a guy in my life that has the possibility to maybe have the potential to maybe one day have a serious relationship with, in the future. The very distant future. I wish we just kind of knew who we were supposed to be with that way they would have to hang out with me, I would just be like well you have to wait until I’m done soaring my wild oats then we can get married and stuff. Not soaring my wild oats like talking to other people, like seeing places and things and meeting people and traveling and just seeing everything.
Does anyone else feel like this? Or is this one of those “justs Mary things”?