Wallowing in Self Pity.

I’ve had a very rough week not only due to school but because I can only take so much from others. I’m also the type of person that holds in all of my emotions until they come out at once which isn’t healthy but that’s just how I work. Well today was my lose it day and all of the sudden something made me really mad and then I got upset and then I lost it. I was already kind of upset this morning so I sat around and watched Harry Potter and painted, then I went to dinner got really pissed off and decided that I need to have a real pity party so I went to Zoe’s to cry it all out. I feel bad for putting my problems on someone else but I know she’ll listen, give little advice, and just hear me out and that’s all I really need when I’m upset. So I tried to be social for a little after that but it wasn’t working so I went to Safeway to get some chocolate cake (because chocolate cake makes everything better) but their computers were broken and the guy in front of me was a dick. So tonight I have eaten my cake (not even half actually sugar doesn’t sit well with me) and I have been wallowing in self pity.

I think it’s okay to wallow in self pity for a little bit, which I’ve done today but then I made myself get moving. You can only feel bad for yourself for so long. Like get it all out and move on. Like I mean I still feel a little crappy but I’m going to start a paper and I’m doing my laundry and tomorrow I’m going to wake up and feel more productive. And I’ll probably run away to Target at some point because I need tights and juice boxes and fruit snacks because I am in for another tough week. I don’t think I’ve said anything but next weekend is fall break so I’m going to be working AND LINDSAY IS GOING TO BE HOME TOO! I miss my best friend guys.

So what are your self pity tips? Personally I recommend warm drinks like decaf coffee or hot chocolate and a lot of chocolate. Movies are good too as well as. Watch something sad so you cry over someone else’s problems instead of your own. Cuddle with your favorite stuffed animal and wrap up in your favorite warm blanket. Just take a day for you but then move on so you don’t get stuck in sadness. Now tomorrow I’m gonna get stuff done and go to a movie on campus and maybe hang out with some friends. Now I’m going to fold my laundry and start a paper so I’m ahead for tomorrow instead of behind.

Moving on from today and onto tomorrow and positive vibes! :)

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One thought on “Wallowing in Self Pity.

  1. gettingthroughanxiety October 4, 2014 / 2:54 pm

    Mary,

    I’m sorry about your bad week. It can be hard sometimes not to wallow in self pity, but I think it’s important like you said to get up and start moving. Watching TV is an excellent way to get your mind off of the negative and so is writing and reading something you enjoy. Also, like I’ve mentioned, I think exercising and listening to music/dancing is helpful.

    I can totally relate to almost “waiting” (not happily of course) for a bad week to follow, but we need to try not to think negatively about something that hasn’t even happened yet. I know that this is one of my biggest problems and I wish you all the best in trying to get through this whenever you struggle with it. Also, not to lecture you, but you’re right; holding things in isn’t healthy and while I understand why you wouldn’t want to dump all your problems on someone, sometimes you need to connect with others and communicate. If they are your real friends, they’ll be there for you.

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