My life is me procrastinating until I can’t wait any longer to actually do something. I am currently procrastinating my news writing homework simply because I don’t want to do it. It’s literally 9 sentences and instead of writing it I have cleaned my room, organized my desk, put clothes away, did my dishes, watched about 30 BuzzFeed videos, some other YouTube videos, waxed my eyebrows, and probably some other things I didn’t need to do. It doesn’t usually get to this point and I don’t know why it has tonight, maybe I’m just beyond bored and don’t want to do my work.
Other than that I feel like I should give a little life update since I haven’t had one in forever. I’ve been doing really well anxiety wise kind of surprisingly. I’ve developed the new thing of just cutting out the things and people that bring unhappiness and anxiety into my life and I’ve started surrounding myself with people who care and I’m really comfortable with. I feel like I’m in a good place because I don’t want to go home all the time. Sure I miss my family, but last year it got to the point where I just hated being on campus because I felt like I didn’t have any good friends that would pass up on a night of drinking to hang out with me. Now, I have friends that do that, but I’ve also learned that I can be in an environment where there is drinking and I’m not going to be completely out of my comfort zone. Maybe just a little bit but not so much that I can’t have fun and laugh with them.
The one thing that I’ve been really upset with up until the past few days is the quality of my blog posts. I found the randomization button for my blog that will allow me to read a random post out of the nearly 365 I have written and some of them are really good. It makes me feel as if I have peaked as a blogger and I don’t want it to be that way, I want to improve. So I was talking with my friend Shannon, and then my friend Logan about this and it is really just up to me. If I want to produce better content I need to do it. There’s really no way I can improve myself without making the effort. I can’t just expect things to get better unless I make them get better. I can push through the writer’s block and the feeling I keep getting that I’m not creative or a good blogger and I can be a good blogger.
My classes are decent. I really like my History of American Film class and it really inspires me to make films, yet mine never turn out the way I want. They are getting better so you should go check out my newest one. I’m declaring my major as Communication Arts and I’ll probably have to pick up a minor. I’m still not really sure what I want to do yet. I would love to blog for a company or run social media for someone but in a lot of cases you need a master’s degree and for an unknown reason you often are still required to sit in an office all day. I really don’t want to do that. I’m trying very hard to figure out what I want to do and I’m sure I’ll figure it out eventually. I know for a fact I’m not going to give up and end up doing something I don’t want to do.
Out of curiosity, what do you guys think I should be when I “grow up”? You read this semi-regularly maybe, what do you think? Let me know in the comments!!