I’ve been working on Christmas presents all day and getting some cleaning done and I realized that there is only two weeks left in my semester, to all of you who only have one, please don’t tell me I’m already jealous. So I thought I would do an early semester reflection.
If you’ve been around for a while you might know that last year I had a really tough time. My anxiety was bad 95% of the time and I didn’t really like to leave my room. I usually spent meals in my room alone. At the end of the year I started hanging out with some new people, not that the old people were bad (well some were but focus on the good) it just kind of happened and I’m really happy. I can’t say that I’ve ever been really good with having friends, I’ve always had friends but I always feel like something happens or we just grow apart, there are few people that I’ve been friends with for years. I’ve known everyone that I’m friends with here for a little over a year and since being back it’s just a lot better feeling like I have a good solid group of friends. Also my friends here are really inspiring. They all do so much and make me think so much and make me want to do more to better myself and the world around me. The difference between this semester and last is so immeasurable and better. I finally feel like I have a place where I’m comfortable and can be myself with people who might judge me but still love me. I feel like I’m finally happy with the people I’ve chosen to surround myself with.
While I can’t say I enjoy my classes I don’t hate all of them. I don’t like most of them but I’m just looking at this as a way to narrow down what I want to do even if that means eliminating more and more things I don’t want to do. I also declared my major so I guess you could say that I made a pretty major step towards my future, pun fully intended and planned out.
All in all I would say with few exceptions this semester has gone far better than planned and college isn’t as dreadful as I thought it to be a year ago. I don’t count the days until I go home next, I don’t really look forward to going home as much. If it’s for more than a few days I kind of dread working and being in Lancaster County just because I like it here and I’m finally more comfortable here. Life takes unexpected turns and I’m really glad I didn’t transfer like I really thought about doing.