Perpetually Confused.

I’m a thinker, lately my catchphrase seems to be “You know if you really think about it (enter anything here) is really weird,” to just about anyone who’s around. I’m sure it’s annoying because then I’ll go into a huge rant about how weird this random irrelevant thing is and I’ll do it for anything and everything. It’s really confusing to the mind when all you want to do is think about how weird something is and that’s really all I do. Like right now I’m thinking about why people have hair- we don’t need it but we take such pride in it. BUT IT’S DEAD AND CONTINUES TO GROW DEAD LENGTH! I don’t understand. Bald is such a statement that some people make and good for them. We don’t need hair- like I’m sure it’s useful to like regulate body temperatures and stuff like that but it’s not necessary. Okay so even that rant about hair went longer than intended and these are my EVERYDAY thoughts now.

I think way too much and I’m currently taking a philosophy class which leads me to question my existence. I mean I’m assuming and hoping I’m real but I guess I just don’t really know.  Yet my professor stands up in front of the class and starts talking about how the chairs we’re sitting on aren’t real and then I’m like well at least I know I can sit down and I’m not going to fall whether it’s a chair or not is slightly irrelevant, at least in my opinion.

It’s more than just thinking something is weird though, I think about things like my life all the time. I over think a lot. Like I meant to my review my study abroad application six more times that I already reviewed four times but I accidently submitted it.  I overthink literally everything I do. I make a mental pro/con list for almost everything, it’s ridiculous. I don’t understand why I have to think so much about everything. Then as soon as I start to think in depth about anything I get really confused because I overthink it to the point where something as simple as whether or not I have time for dinner confuses me. I  need to stop. Someone stop me. Just kidding you can’t.

Does anyone else do this or am I just crazy? Let me know in the comments!

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4 thoughts on “Perpetually Confused.

  1. gettingthroughanxiety February 1, 2015 / 3:12 pm

    Mary,
    I completely know what you’re going through. I think sometimes, when we are anxious about other things, we tend to focus a lot on things we normally wouldn’t. For example, when I was in high school, we watched this movie (I’m not going to say which so that you too don’t over think about it like I did), and I kept obsessing about it until it was really bothering me. I realized afterwards that the reason I kept obsessing could have been because I had just sort of started high school or because my Grandma had just recently died at the time.

    Sometimes though, it’s okay for us to over think. Just yesterday I was thinking about how, when you think about it, it’s kind of weird that when swimming, it’s acceptable to wear just a bikini top and bottom but it would never be acceptable to just walk around with hardly any clothes on (which makes sense, but still). Sometimes over thinking makes us creative, like when we’re writing stories or poems. However, sometimes over-thinking can cause us a great deal of stress.

    You’re not alone though and you’re not crazy.

    • Mary February 2, 2015 / 1:06 pm

      No it’s so weird! Double standards ad just basic life things that seem so simple are really complex when you think about it. Thank goodness I’m not crazy!

  2. calebgustin February 20, 2015 / 2:48 pm

    Totally do this. Especially with ears and noses. Really like the ending, “Someone stop me. Just kidding you can’t.” So perfect. My thoughts exactly!

    • Mary February 20, 2015 / 3:10 pm

      Haha thanks! I like to think I’m funny- glad I’m not the only one who does this!

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