30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 14

blog challenge day 14

For me, this is pretty easy to answer. The biggest problem I’ve faced in recent years especially, is my anxiety. It’s a problem that’s affected a lot more of my life than I would care to admit. Not only has it been a problem but it’s caused me more problems.

Looking back on my life I think I was anxious longer than I realized. It’s problem that I often choose to ignore- which yes is very stupid, but it’s the biggest problem I face on what I would say a daily basis. It has gotten a lot better since I’ve been making sure that I don’t put myself in situations where I feel unsafe or uncomfortable. In situations where I do get anxious it has gotten harder to stop it since it hasn’t been happening as often.

There are definitely things that I have not been doing because of my anxiety. I won’t do certain things, especially by myself. Yes, I try to challenge myself with things like trying to study abroad, but there are things like driving to new places with bad directions that are making me very anxious still that I’m unfortunately choosing not to deal with.

I am very well aware that this is my biggest problem and it’s probably something that I am always going to have to deal with. There are always going to be triggers and things that make me snap and go into a full out panic, but I will hopefully continue to get better and not be in the place I was this time last year and throughout the summer. It comes in waves of good and bad, which I think this is most likely how the rest of my life will pan out. Unfortunately I will make my problem other people’s problem as well which doesn’t seem fair. I hope that I will get to a place one day where a panic attack and an escape route is not something constantly on my mind.

Anxiety is my biggest problem. I don’t know if it will always be because life has a way of throwing curveballs at people but for right now I think it’s something that I’m always going to have to deal with and I’ve finally accepted that. It’s a part of me- not a part of me I’m proud of but it’s me and it’s what makes me who I am and helps me to make decisions. Unfortunately it’s a part of me that I have to form my life around and plan around but as long as I’m surrounded that I’m comfortable with I’m fine.

Also just a disclaimer, right now for the most part I’m fine. So  if you know me in real life no need to check up on me because I’m all good!

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3 thoughts on “30 Day Blog Challenge: Day 14

  1. gettingthroughanxiety March 3, 2015 / 7:58 pm

    As you know, my biggest problem is anxiety as well. I’m sorry you have to go through it, no one should have to. Remember that there are people that are here for you and that if you ever need anything, I’m here as well.

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