So I only blogged twice this week and I feel like a failure. However, that’s besides the point. Well only kind of. I don’t know what it is with me and blogging lately. All I want to do is blog and improve but I can’t. I can’t write. The bloggers block will never leave me. Someone help.
I was just in London, it was super cool. I’m going back next weekend, which happened because I definitely wanted to spend more than 24 hours in the city and it just so happened that break was that more than 24 hours and it started the week after I was there. Also, after that, I get to go see Molly in Spain and I’m so excited. I haven’t seen Molly since June! I have also never been to Spain before so I’m really looking forward to that. There will be several guest posts next week because I refuse to count on wifi since it has cut out on me in so many places so many times before. They will be wonderful I am sure, so make sure you read them and follow the bloggers who write them!
Time is flying by while I’m away. It’s crazy. I have 47 days left as of 5 minutes ago, my family will be here within a few weeks which I am so excited about. It’s both good and bad that it’s going so fast. I plan on doing a whole post about this eventually. However, I do think that it has taught me that I need an easy way to get to the people I’m closest to. I have friends here, but I do miss my family and my friends back home a lot and it’s just too expensive to go home, so I need to be somewhere when I move out that it’s easier to get home for. Maybe not home, but to someone or something more familiar, if that makes sense. Like at college I can just go home whenever I want really since it’s just a two hour drive, I don’t need to be that close, but something like a four or five hour drive wouldn’t be bad, or even a train. Just something easier than a flight with a huge time difference.
I got super anxious for the first time in a long time yesterday. I had a very small panic attack and it just kind of sucked. I was by myself, which was probably for the best, but it just put me in a terrible mood. Once I collected myself I was fine, but I was just annoyed because I’ve been so good for so long and it’s those bad days that just get me. I don’t know if that makes sense, but I’ve been kind of hung up on it ever since and way more irritable because that’s what anxiety does to me unfortunately, it makes me mad. I need to do another anxiety post too, that would be good for me too probably.
Well now I have two post ideas in this blog post, so maybe that’s promise for next week, I sure hope so. I slept for like 3-5 hours since we didn’t get a hotel last night so I think it’s time for me to go to bed.
Let me know if you have any suggestions for me to get over blogger’s block or if you have any things you want me to write!