Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 19

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It’s been officially over a month since I’ve done an LNBM, which means that bloggers block is fading away, we will see if that sticks once school picks up on Monday. Eek. However, because of that, I feel  like there hasn’t been a life update in a while.

I start classes on Monday, that’s insane. My break has flashed by in the blink of an eye, which is good and bad. Good because I hate waiting for things, bad because I didn’t get to do half the things I wanted to do. That’s partially because I got way more hours over break than I did over the summer, which is really good, but I’m also very tired.

Also, I can’t believe I’m going back to my school tomorrow. I spent all of last semester saying to my friends “oh I don’t go there” to be funny, but like now it feels almost weird to be going back. I’m afraid I’m not going to know anyone, which is stupid because my school has like just over a thousand students, so that’s only like 300 or so that I won’t recognize. However, I also switched buildings, which I realize I’m about to sound very stupid, but there’s like a whole new system I have to learn. I don’t know which showers to use, there’s going to be different people in the halls, it’s just going to be different. It feels kind of weird just walking into school in the middle of the year, I know it’s a new semester, it just feels strange.

I am so excited for a routine again. I have a babysitting job lined up for next semester. I just have schedule that will be generally the same everyday and I’m really looking forward to it. There’s something that I really look forward to about starting back up again. While there are certain classes that I’m really nervous about, there are also a lot that I’m really excited for. I’m glad that I’m finally done with all of my gen eds and I’m finally like moving up into just classes for my major and then classes I actually want to take.

I guess this post could have been called “back to school” but it’s past 7 pm so it’s technically LNBM. When do you go back to school? Some people are already back, some people still have a week or two, they took a week away from us, so I would be lying if I said I wasn’t a little upset, but maybe it’s for the best!

Okay, now it’s bed time, I’m leaving at 7 am tomorrow!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 18

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Well it’s been awhile since I’ve done some late night blogging, and really that’s all I have time for right now it seems. I go home in 12 days by the time I hit publish on this post, which is crazy, this semester has gone so quickly. However, I have 8 assignments due before them, I crossed off two today (thank goodness) but it’s stressful and I’m ready to be done with them all.

It’s weird getting ready to go home, it has gone by really fast, but I’m also ready to go home. I’ll miss the people and the city but I really miss my family friend back home, so I’m pretty ready to get home.

A lot’s going on and a lot is about to happen. I was away for a week, saw Molly, and now I’ve been back in Dublin ever since and I’m just trying to make the best out of my last few weeks here. I’m also getting ready to start 12 Days of Christmas on my blog! 12 days of daily blogging!  I do miss that sometimes, so this will either feed the fuel or leave me hungry for more, we shall see.

I’m also very excited for Christmas, I’m almost done my shopping. I love Christmas, I can’t wait to get home to wrap the presets. The things I’m most excited about going home are as followed: IHOP, wrapping Christmas presents, and having an oven. That’s obviously not including seeing everyone. I really miss IHOP, it will be breakfast on Sunday. Well maybe dinner because it’s so crowded Sunday morning and afternoon, you just have to time out the meal times. Also, I’m excited for American Netflix, some options are better here, but there are a lot fewer.

Let me rant about housing back home for a second. They won’t tell me who I can live with, they are literally just going to stick me with some random person in some random building which is absolutely absurd if you ask me. I’m so annoyed. It doesn’t make sense for them, and it doesn’t make sense for me. I can’t even fill out a form to see who I would be most compatible with. It’s just ridiculous. They wouldn’t let me save a spot, their recommendation for study abroad students is to live in language housing, providing no recommendations for people who are studying in an English speaking country. It’s really helpful. I’m annoyed.

Anyway, I’m beyond ready for bed. What’s going on in your life?

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 17

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So I only blogged twice this week and I feel like a failure. However, that’s besides the point. Well only kind of. I don’t know what it is with me and blogging lately. All I want to do is blog and improve but I can’t. I can’t write. The bloggers block will never leave me. Someone help.

I was just in London, it was super cool. I’m going back next weekend, which happened because I definitely wanted to spend more than 24 hours in the city and it just so happened that break was that more than 24 hours and it started the week after I was there. Also, after that, I get to go see Molly in Spain and I’m so excited. I haven’t seen Molly since June! I have also never been to Spain before so I’m really looking forward to that. There will be several guest posts next week because I refuse to count on wifi since it has cut out on me in so many places so many times before. They will be wonderful I am sure, so make sure you read them and follow the bloggers who write them!

Time is flying by while I’m away. It’s crazy. I have 47 days left as of 5 minutes ago, my family will be here within a few weeks which I am so excited about. It’s both good and bad that it’s going so fast. I plan on doing a whole post about this eventually. However, I do think that it has taught me that I need an easy way to get to the people I’m closest to. I have friends here, but I do miss my family and my friends back home a lot and it’s just too expensive to go home, so I need to be somewhere when I move out that it’s easier to get home for. Maybe not home, but to someone or something more familiar, if that makes sense. Like at college I can just go home whenever I want really since it’s just a two hour drive, I don’t need to be that close, but something like a four or five hour drive wouldn’t be bad, or even a train. Just something easier than a flight with a huge time difference.

I got super anxious for the first time in a long time yesterday. I had a very small panic attack and it just kind of sucked. I was by myself, which was probably for the best, but it just put me in a terrible mood. Once I collected myself I was fine, but I was just annoyed because I’ve been so good for so long and it’s those bad days that just get me. I don’t know if that makes sense, but I’ve been kind of hung up on it ever since and way more irritable because that’s what anxiety does to me unfortunately, it makes me mad. I need to do another anxiety post too, that would be good for me too probably.

Well now I have two post ideas in this blog post, so maybe that’s promise for next week, I sure hope so.  I slept for like 3-5 hours since we didn’t get a hotel last night so I think it’s time for me to go to bed.

Let me know if you have any suggestions for me to get over blogger’s block or if you have any things you want me to write!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 16

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I hate the number 16 so this post is just giving me the chills.

So I guess I went a little MIA for a little bit there. I got a pretty bad cold and was in bed by 10 almost every night this week after taking my time on assignments and such blogging just fell at the wayside. Since my last blog post, I’ve been to Paris! My dad was there for work so I went along for the weekend. It was a lot of fun, but my cold started right before so by the time I got back to Ireland, I hardly had a voice.

Okay here’s a little political rant I have right now, I’m so pissed off about all of the shootings going on back in the States. Currently I’m living in a country where the police don’t even have guns, and since I’ve been here there have been no gun crimes that I have heard of being reported, however, there have been at least three shootings at colleges in the same time period. It just makes me angry, I feel like no one is taking action and it drives me crazy. I get that Americans have the right to bear arms, but please someone make it harder to get guns, I shouldn’t be able to go into Walmart and buy a gun. It’s a sick world, let’s try to make it better.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I went shopping today! I’ve been trying not to shop while I’ve been here because I would rather spend  money on travel and things like that, but I just felt like it today, and I actually got two sweaters. The one I’m sure will be in pictures from probably both this weekend and next weekend. Sunday to Monday I’m going to Galway, since it’s a bank holiday weekend so we have no classes, then next weekend I’m going to London, and then I have a week off and I have bunch of stuff planned. Life is about to get crazy and my time here is about to go by in the blink of an eye. I think that’s exciting and scary. While part of me never wants to leave this adventure, another part of me really, really misses everyone at home.  That’s my thing, I never get homesick, I never miss my bed or my house (maybe my shower with how weird these ones are) but I just really miss the people. And IHOP.

So yeah, that’s what you’ve missed. Hopefully I can get back to my schedule now, that’s the goal at least!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 15

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First and foremost I would like to point out that I haven’t done one of these in a week, so slow clap for me everyone. Also, I’m actually blogging not on the last three days of the week, so another win on my part.  But those two points bring me to my first problem of this LNBM, I’m in a blogging rut. I feel like I see so many people growing with their blogs or stopping. I feel like I peaked last year with my daily blog, seriously, I feel like this downward spiral with my blog and I think that’s because the way I am as a person.  I am one of those all or nothing people. If it’s not part of my routine I can’t do it. Well, I can, it just doesn’t flow as easily and I forget to do it.  I’m super frustrated with myself and that I just can’t seem to get out of this rut.

I am trying however, I think that if maybe I try to plan my blog posts out more I can provide more content, which is something that I like to do to better my writing skills, but I also have some type of structure to follow. Of course it can be mended because I don’t like to limit my creativity. I just want to strive to be a better blogger.

This week has been kind of stressful. I don’t want to get into all the stuff at the beginning of the week, but I’ve been kind of anxious and stressed about a lot. To top it off yesterday I lost my key, luckily I called the cafe I had class at yesterday and they had it so I got it today, very thankfully. I feel like Monday through Wednesday are busy and stressful and drag on forever, but then Thursday through Sunday go by in the blink of an eye. Time is such a weird concept.

Next weekend I’m going to Paris to see my dad since he will be there for work and I’m very excited. My problem is that I don’t get homesick, I just miss people a lot. However, with travelling and visits it will help that not be so bad. This weekend I think I’m going to a seaside town or something, definitely seeing more of Ireland.

I do really love it here, it’s so pretty. As much as  I get frustrated with the scheduling or feeling like I don’t have enough information, I do love the city. This is the first time I’ve ever lived in an actual city and it’s so convenient. Like I thought Frederick was nice and convenient, but really you need a car or need to know someone with a car. Here, the buses are great, but walking isn’t bad either. I really like it.

Goodnight world.

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 14

I just want to be creative but it’s midnight and I’m tired. Also I’ve lost the ability to be creative.

I left my todo list paper at home and that was a huge mistake because I need to make one. I’ve only had one week of classes and I feel like I have no control over my life already, maybe that’s because I have too much control. They just let you go to whatever classes you want to go to for the first two weeks. For me this is too much to think about, they don’t want me to be in the right classes, so I’m just doing in anyway, at this point. I’m going to the classes I was approved for at home and they can “encourage” me differently.  I’m just stressed and want a set schedule with set assignments and things I’m supposed to be doing. I feel like I need to get my life together.

I started watching “How to Get Away with Murder” it’s very dramatic. I’m not sure how I feel about it yet, I just want to know what happens. I think that’s why I tend to like shows that have already concluded or movies better because I have more immediate gratification and I hate waiting. I’m very impatient, I crave immediate gratification.

The one thing I have really liked this week is just exploring the city. Since I’ve been here before I always felt confident with it, however, I’m now realizing it’s a lot bigger than I originally had thought. I really like that though, I like finding more things to explore, more places to see, I like falling in love with new places. Tomorrow my adventure will be to find some good paper for a todo list before I go crazy.

I’m exhausted after a long week, and I know it’s not late night back home yet, but it’s pretty late here so I’m going to bed (okay maybe after this episode).

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 13

So it’s not Late Night back in the US, but it is here, it’s actually so late that it just so happens to be my birthday!

Today I went to the National Leprechaun Museum, it lasted all of fifteen minutes since it was the annual Culture Night so they just seemed to give a little snippet of what the museum actually was. It was pretty cool, but the funny thing was the reason we got in was because my birthday was tomorrow at the time.

So yes, I’m 21 now, a real adult. I feel exactly the same. The weird thing was, I didn’t have anything I was really looking forward to about this birthday. Maybe if I was back home I would be super excited since I could legally drink, but I can already do that here. I’m not sure, but it’s a weird feeling.

I think I also need to switch the times on my blog since they’re set to times back in the US, I’m not sure how that all works with posting times and such. There are ways to post in the past which I’ve accidently done before so I want to make sure I’m not doing that again, let me know if you know if I’m doing something wrong. Time is just confusing to me.  I don’t know if I’ll ever understand it.

Classes start Monday and I still don’t have my classes. There seems to be a lack of communication or maybe it’s a lack of understanding on my side, I’m not sure. So that’s a little stressful, but I’m taking my birthday easy, stress free. I’m going to go shopping, find myself a birthday present from me, and go out to dinner with some friends that I met here. Take it nice and easy, no stress, no fuss, just fun.

I need blog post suggestions, I’m struggling again. Leave anything you want to see written in the comments!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 12

In less than 24 hours I will be on a plane to Ireland. In like 10 hours we leave for NY so I can fly to Philly (okay airlines save me money by costing you, idk??) so I can fly to Dublin.

I made my last trip to Hood yesterday because it was Eric’s birthday so goodbyes were hard today, well for me at least. I had to say goodbye to one of my sisters today too, everyone is emotional.

This is short to update you. I am hoping that there’s a blog post tomorrow but that will all depend on airport wifi.

I’m so ready to get there. I’m so worried that something’s going to happen with my flight from NY to Philly so I’m going to miss my flight to Dublin. I know it’s ridiculous but I’m just nervous. It’ll be fine I’m sure but I just want to be on that flight to Dublin and feel calm.

So yes, I’m almost done talking about leaving to study abroad, don’t worry! Hopefully better blog posts to come soon!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 11

So I tried to make a schedule, I just need to finish it and then I might be able to follow it. I don’t know though. I’m trying. I hoping once I have a routine that it will help my blog as well.

I was going to try and do some more blogging today, like scheduled posts, because they make me feel like I have my life together. However, I just didn’t do anything instead. Which is okay, but I feel like now, looking back on my day I should’ve packed more or blogged some or just should have been more productive in general. I hate that, but I guess that’s okay.

I’ve also been dealing with some shoulder blade pain which has made late night blogging tough because all I want to do is lay in bed, which is what I’m doing now, but it’s harder to blog in pain. I don’t want to complain too much, but it hurts.

My study abroad count down is officially into the single digits, I leave next Sunday and I can’t wait. This week I’m going to Hood to spend time with my friends, and thank goodness because I am going stir crazy in Pennsylvania and I need some distractions, also I miss everyone a lot. I was finally assigned my roommates, so that really just makes everything seem more real. I only have three more days of work left, which is crazy. When I get back from Hood Monday night we’re getting to crunch time and I can’t wait.

I don’t like that I feel like I’m wishing away my time, because you know that’s my most precious commodity. However, this summer has been long enough, things haven’t gone my way, yes, I’m aware that sounds bratty, but I’m ready to have a routine once again, I’m ready to go to class, and I’m ready to explore new places in the world.

Yes so this is tonight’s LNBM, not much too it haha. But definitely check out Wednesday’s post about trying to do better for the world and give me any advice you have!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 10

I was going to try not and do one of these this week but it seems like as soon as I sit down to blog all of my ideas are gone. I think I’ve done at least one of these every week since I started it. That would be an okay thing if that was the intention, but it wasn’t. I really need to get a blogging calendar (that’s a stupid excuse, I know) so I can get my life in order. When I tried it before the problem was I had too many ideas, but I think it would be helpful now since I don’t seem to have enough. My brain is barren when it comes to practical blog post ideas. Maybe I should start doing my not practical ones and actually be proud of what I’m posting. Obviously, I’m frustrated with myself right now, my blog just isn’t where I want it to be, so of course I’m having the open conversation because that’s just what I do.

Everyone is back at school now, I’m alone. I mean, I’ve been alone most of the summer as it is, but it’s weirder now because it’s almost like I’m missing out, even though I know I’m not. Like everyone is back at my college and I don’t go down to visit until next weekend and I just feel like I’m missing something. I have this fear that everyone is going to forget about me/ not want to hang out/ be too busy to hang out when I go down, because they’re all in class. I also hate to be that person who asks people to hang out with them. I know, that’s stupid, but I would much rather people ask me to hang out because whenever I ask, I always feel so annoying. But really all I want to do is seem my friends and talk to them in person, not over the phone or text, I just want to look at their faces and talk to them, while we’re all together and I’m not in another state.  That sounds whiny and bratty I know, especially since I’m about to go on a journey of a lifetime, you don’t need to tell me, I get it. I just feel like I’m missing out, even though in a few weeks I’ll be making some new friends and having my own adventure and FINALLY going to classes.

Speaking of leaving, I’m beyond ready to go. I leave in two and a half weeks, find out who my roommates are on Monday (maybe tomorrow if I’m lucky!), and I will hopefully finish packing next week. My last day of work is not until the 10th so hopefully I’ll be able to get some more hours and make the time go faster since people left, but I doubt it. I don’t like that I’m wishing away time, so I’m trying to fill it up. I watch a lot of travel videos. Some of those people I think are actually crazy. They come up with the weirdest stuff to pick out and go against. Some are helpful, but some of them, I just say “What????” to because it just doesn’t make logical sense. Pick and choose what you listen to, no need to get caught up in every detail.

I want to do another post about my travel tips. Also, what I noticed, is that there are a million what’s in my suitcase videos for the beach and whatnot, but not very many for studying abroad, if I made a video would anyone watch? Should I vlog any of my trip? Every time I put videos up I end up making the private. Any opinions? Let me know.

I’m suffering from severe bloggers block. I don’t know why. Leave me tips to beat it please.

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