I Will Blog!

I’ve been missing from here all month. I forgot that I have a post I can do on Nashville, my overalls, and my August Birchbox. Or maybe I didn’t really forget, maybe I just didn’t do it. I mean they will get done, for some reason it’s just taking time.

My biggest mistake this year was not making myself a blogging schedule. I need to set myself a schedule at the start of the year otherwise I do nothing. I would say this year has been a failure of a year. If anyone has any suggestions for 2017 I am more than willing to take them!

I also want to a September challenge, so be on the look out for that (hopefully).

I don’t know. All of my blog posts have been whiny “I don’t know what to write” or Birchboxes. I just don’t know what to do.

I will blog. I really will. Hopefully it will be quality and it will be soon.

Please leave your blogging struggle help suggestions in the comments!

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Nothing to Say…

I’ve been a blogger for nearly three years, however, I feel like this year I’ve lost the privilege to say that. I went from daily blogger to 3-5 days a week, to no schedule which means some weeks are better than others but mostly I never see WordPress anymore.

I don’t know what it is or if anyone else feels this way. I just don’t know what to say. I sold my soul to the Odyssey so when I do have decent ideas I feel like that’s where they go. My blog has fallen to the wayside of my not busy life.

I think part of my issue is, I have nothing to say. However, that couldn’t be further from the truth. I have a lot to say. Am I self-censoring again? I don’t know. I think a huge part of the problem was that I dated someone this year and took 18.5 credits last semester and it kind of wore me down, and I forgot about blogging in my free time, especially since it was so limited. If the boy wasn’t around I wanted to be with my friends because I did feel like I was neglecting them. After I ended the relationship my weeks were filled with seemingly endless amounts of school work. Now, I’m at school for the summer spending my free time with friends, and the rest watching Netflix and doing research. I guess I’ve just lost touch with my blogger self.

I used to share my whole week with this little section of the internet. I used to write down every single thought that came through my mind. Now, I’m a senior in college and the biggest thing I have to show for my life (in my opinion) is this blog. It is my baby and I’m so proud of it, however, recently I just haven’t been doing it justice. And I don’t know how to fix it.

This year is the the year I’m supposed to really get my shit together (or at least that’s what I’m taking from it) and I always had this sliver of hope that someone would find this and it would be my salvation from the real world. I thought that it would help me become some freelance writer with oodles of free time for adventures. I now, don’t foresee that happening and freelancing is hard and I don’t know if there’s anyone I want to write for if I’m being honest. After reading about all the BuzzFeed stuff I’m very conflicted.

Anyway, I’m really hoping that I get some inspiration soon. I’m tired of not blogging. I’m jumping back into it. Maybe things will change, like my social media handles, and the content of my blog, but I’m back (hopefully).

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 22

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Oh I know I just did one of these but I have a lot to say. Kind of.

Bloggers block has become my chronic condition. I have a severe lack of ideas recently. I just don’t know what to say but at the same time, I feel like I have a lot to say. I just don’t know. I’m stuck.

Today I participated in my first blogger chat on twitter and it was very inspiring. Tomorrow I’m going to clean my room and get my life together as tonight’s #theStumbleisReal chat was about  organization. Now I want to be organized. Like this is definitely something that I’m going to do because talking to like-minded people is something that really inspires me.

I want to be inspired to be a better blogger. I just wish I had ideas. Like I have my little calendar of ideas but by the time it gets to that date, I just don’t want to do it. Hopefully this week, I can plan some stuff out because I don’t have much due, but I’m just at a loss for ideas. Is there anything anyone wants to read?

I want to be a better blogger but I don’t want to be a different blogger and I think that’s where a lot of my struggles lie. I was a daily blogger and I think a lot of my identity as a blogger still goes back to that and the fact that I’m not anymore is still a struggle for me a lot of the time.  Like I don’t want to go back to that, because it’s hard. Like I give huge kudos to daily bloggers who produce actual content. I might try a month or so soon just to force myself to get in the habit of it again.

I’m having a blogger existential crisis. Help. Tips, please!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 17

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So I only blogged twice this week and I feel like a failure. However, that’s besides the point. Well only kind of. I don’t know what it is with me and blogging lately. All I want to do is blog and improve but I can’t. I can’t write. The bloggers block will never leave me. Someone help.

I was just in London, it was super cool. I’m going back next weekend, which happened because I definitely wanted to spend more than 24 hours in the city and it just so happened that break was that more than 24 hours and it started the week after I was there. Also, after that, I get to go see Molly in Spain and I’m so excited. I haven’t seen Molly since June! I have also never been to Spain before so I’m really looking forward to that. There will be several guest posts next week because I refuse to count on wifi since it has cut out on me in so many places so many times before. They will be wonderful I am sure, so make sure you read them and follow the bloggers who write them!

Time is flying by while I’m away. It’s crazy. I have 47 days left as of 5 minutes ago, my family will be here within a few weeks which I am so excited about. It’s both good and bad that it’s going so fast. I plan on doing a whole post about this eventually. However, I do think that it has taught me that I need an easy way to get to the people I’m closest to. I have friends here, but I do miss my family and my friends back home a lot and it’s just too expensive to go home, so I need to be somewhere when I move out that it’s easier to get home for. Maybe not home, but to someone or something more familiar, if that makes sense. Like at college I can just go home whenever I want really since it’s just a two hour drive, I don’t need to be that close, but something like a four or five hour drive wouldn’t be bad, or even a train. Just something easier than a flight with a huge time difference.

I got super anxious for the first time in a long time yesterday. I had a very small panic attack and it just kind of sucked. I was by myself, which was probably for the best, but it just put me in a terrible mood. Once I collected myself I was fine, but I was just annoyed because I’ve been so good for so long and it’s those bad days that just get me. I don’t know if that makes sense, but I’ve been kind of hung up on it ever since and way more irritable because that’s what anxiety does to me unfortunately, it makes me mad. I need to do another anxiety post too, that would be good for me too probably.

Well now I have two post ideas in this blog post, so maybe that’s promise for next week, I sure hope so.  I slept for like 3-5 hours since we didn’t get a hotel last night so I think it’s time for me to go to bed.

Let me know if you have any suggestions for me to get over blogger’s block or if you have any things you want me to write!

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Versatile Blogger Award

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Today I was nominated for The Versatile Blogger Award by Getting Through Anxiety. Thank you so much, I really appreciate it! It really makes me feel better about my blog when I start doubting it with my bloggers block and all. However, we must get on with this post!

The Rules:

•Thank the person who gave you this award and include a link to his or her blog.
•Select fifteen (15) blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered and/or follow regularly. (Choose blogs you find excellent!)
•Nominate those fifteen (15) bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award, including a link to the original VBA site.
•Notify your nominations!
•Finally, don’t forget to tell the person who nominated you seven (7) things about yourself.

Nominations:

  1. Katie from Blooming Through Dirt
  2. Loz from Girl In Between
  3. Tori from Tori’s Stories
  4. Getting Through Anxiety (you deserve it)
  5. Logan from Leaves of Logan
  6. Izzy from Anxious Izzy
  7. Hiba from Trying Novelty
  8. Anyone else who wants to this and if you do please tell me because I need to find more bloggers!

Facts about me:

  1. I find making the bed the most tedious chore of all.
  2. I’ve actually lived in another country for a whole month and it has flown by.
  3. I’m on a cleaning spree of everything. I just want to declutter my life.
  4. I think peanut butter is better in Ireland
  5. Netflix isn’t working right and they aren’t helping me and it’s very frustrating.
  6. I want to work for IHOP one day (like for the social media team).
  7. I dropped my first class ever this week.

Thanks again for the nomination! Again let me know if you decide to do this award to or if you have a blog I should check out or if you know of any blogs I should check out!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 15

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First and foremost I would like to point out that I haven’t done one of these in a week, so slow clap for me everyone. Also, I’m actually blogging not on the last three days of the week, so another win on my part.  But those two points bring me to my first problem of this LNBM, I’m in a blogging rut. I feel like I see so many people growing with their blogs or stopping. I feel like I peaked last year with my daily blog, seriously, I feel like this downward spiral with my blog and I think that’s because the way I am as a person.  I am one of those all or nothing people. If it’s not part of my routine I can’t do it. Well, I can, it just doesn’t flow as easily and I forget to do it.  I’m super frustrated with myself and that I just can’t seem to get out of this rut.

I am trying however, I think that if maybe I try to plan my blog posts out more I can provide more content, which is something that I like to do to better my writing skills, but I also have some type of structure to follow. Of course it can be mended because I don’t like to limit my creativity. I just want to strive to be a better blogger.

This week has been kind of stressful. I don’t want to get into all the stuff at the beginning of the week, but I’ve been kind of anxious and stressed about a lot. To top it off yesterday I lost my key, luckily I called the cafe I had class at yesterday and they had it so I got it today, very thankfully. I feel like Monday through Wednesday are busy and stressful and drag on forever, but then Thursday through Sunday go by in the blink of an eye. Time is such a weird concept.

Next weekend I’m going to Paris to see my dad since he will be there for work and I’m very excited. My problem is that I don’t get homesick, I just miss people a lot. However, with travelling and visits it will help that not be so bad. This weekend I think I’m going to a seaside town or something, definitely seeing more of Ireland.

I do really love it here, it’s so pretty. As much as  I get frustrated with the scheduling or feeling like I don’t have enough information, I do love the city. This is the first time I’ve ever lived in an actual city and it’s so convenient. Like I thought Frederick was nice and convenient, but really you need a car or need to know someone with a car. Here, the buses are great, but walking isn’t bad either. I really like it.

Goodnight world.

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 10

I was going to try not and do one of these this week but it seems like as soon as I sit down to blog all of my ideas are gone. I think I’ve done at least one of these every week since I started it. That would be an okay thing if that was the intention, but it wasn’t. I really need to get a blogging calendar (that’s a stupid excuse, I know) so I can get my life in order. When I tried it before the problem was I had too many ideas, but I think it would be helpful now since I don’t seem to have enough. My brain is barren when it comes to practical blog post ideas. Maybe I should start doing my not practical ones and actually be proud of what I’m posting. Obviously, I’m frustrated with myself right now, my blog just isn’t where I want it to be, so of course I’m having the open conversation because that’s just what I do.

Everyone is back at school now, I’m alone. I mean, I’ve been alone most of the summer as it is, but it’s weirder now because it’s almost like I’m missing out, even though I know I’m not. Like everyone is back at my college and I don’t go down to visit until next weekend and I just feel like I’m missing something. I have this fear that everyone is going to forget about me/ not want to hang out/ be too busy to hang out when I go down, because they’re all in class. I also hate to be that person who asks people to hang out with them. I know, that’s stupid, but I would much rather people ask me to hang out because whenever I ask, I always feel so annoying. But really all I want to do is seem my friends and talk to them in person, not over the phone or text, I just want to look at their faces and talk to them, while we’re all together and I’m not in another state.  That sounds whiny and bratty I know, especially since I’m about to go on a journey of a lifetime, you don’t need to tell me, I get it. I just feel like I’m missing out, even though in a few weeks I’ll be making some new friends and having my own adventure and FINALLY going to classes.

Speaking of leaving, I’m beyond ready to go. I leave in two and a half weeks, find out who my roommates are on Monday (maybe tomorrow if I’m lucky!), and I will hopefully finish packing next week. My last day of work is not until the 10th so hopefully I’ll be able to get some more hours and make the time go faster since people left, but I doubt it. I don’t like that I’m wishing away time, so I’m trying to fill it up. I watch a lot of travel videos. Some of those people I think are actually crazy. They come up with the weirdest stuff to pick out and go against. Some are helpful, but some of them, I just say “What????” to because it just doesn’t make logical sense. Pick and choose what you listen to, no need to get caught up in every detail.

I want to do another post about my travel tips. Also, what I noticed, is that there are a million what’s in my suitcase videos for the beach and whatnot, but not very many for studying abroad, if I made a video would anyone watch? Should I vlog any of my trip? Every time I put videos up I end up making the private. Any opinions? Let me know.

I’m suffering from severe bloggers block. I don’t know why. Leave me tips to beat it please.

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