Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 28

I am sitting on our living room floor with about a million and five papers scattered around me along with a host of cold meds, decaf coffee, and some soy and dairy free chocolate. I keep staring at my very out-dated to-do list hoping it will give me answers that it’s not going to give me. I already took my evening dose of melatonin, so my apologies if this is a little scattered, I have to be up at 4:45 to babysit tomorrow morning so better safe than sorry with taking it early.

I have a second interview tomorrow, I’m not one for publicizing this type of information as I see it to be jinx worthy, however, I put everything here and maybe it’s jinx worthy to not ask for your best thoughts. Really, I’m afraid of jinxes no matter what so no matter what I do, if I don’t get this job I’m going to blame it as a jinx on something.

The job hunt in general, has been stressful. I have lost count of the number of jobs I’ve applied for. I’ve stopped applying to anything not on the east coast because I don’t think anybody wants to pay for me to relocate. If you do, ya know, let me know, I’ll move anywhere.

Other than jobs I have a crazy short time until graduation and I honestly can’t believe it. Although cliche, it does it feel like just yesterday that I started this blog in conjunction with my college career. While I’m so excited to be done school and get out of the classroom and maybe even out of my parents house (no offense, just looking for new), I’m not quite as ready for bills and whatever else real adults have to do. I want to do all the fun things and skip everything I might ever have to worry about. Generally, I’m more excited than not.

I’ve been working a lot this year to get to a point where I’m comfortable. I should’ve spent less but I’m considering this my last few months to be a little reckless. I babysit ALL the time, less now than earlier this year, but still a lot. I also work at the marketing department at my school, and as an intern. There might be other things I’m forgetting but, it’s been good. I think it’s been helping me prep for the future of being busy. If I could be a professional nanny, it’s definitely something I would consider. However, I did not go to college to do that, so I should really use the skills I’ve developed to please my parents and myself.

Anyway, here’s a little bit of my word vomit for everyone. How’s you job hunt going? Any tips for me? Anyone successfully freelancing and have some advice? Let me know!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 26

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I’m back at school and trying to get back to blogging. I’ve just had the year of bloggers block which I think might lead to a year of daily blogging but we’ll see. However, right now I’ve just been in my head.

I don’t know if it’s my anxiety, fear of the future, or just simply how my brain works sometimes but I’m just stuck some days. Like here is the thing, I’m a senior in college now and nine out of ten days I just don’t feel prepared I suppose. Like I will be done my major in the fall, and then I have to decide whether or not I want to do the concentration (one more class). That’s it. 29 credits stand between me and the diploma I’ve been craving for the past eight years. Yet, that’s it. Like it was all this build up and anticipation to this year and I’m just very underwhelmed.

Another thing, I’m like super back into like videos. I go through phases with this stuff. Like right now I definitely want to get into artsy vlogs. Like I don’t really want to do those follow me around types, but more of a from my eye point of view type of things. I really just like editing and how you can put together this vision that you have in your head and I want to do more of that and I would like to consider that an option for my future, however, that would be very, very hard.

I’m also going to go through a major rebrand this summer. Or so I say. My whole life my internet presence since the fifth grade from Neopets to email, I’ve been mrmilligan13. However, that does make me look like Mr. Milligan. I will be running a twitter pole within the next couple of weeks, so make sure you’re following me for updates and if you would like to vote in what my rebrand should be. Also let me know if you have any ideas because I have zero. The only reason that I think I might want to keep it is because men are statistically more successful than women, do I join the bad side? No. Because women should be equal and I shouldn’t have to hide behind a “mr” in all of my usernames to be successful. So I’m rebranding.

Finally, I just think everyone should know that I watched Girl Meets World from 2-3 am before bed last(?) night (morning?) and sobbed hysterically because I have missed my opportunity for a Corey Matthews. Then for this season they recreated one of the sequences from the theme song of Boy Meets World and I just cried. I’m emotional.

Happy LNBM, I’ll  be around more hopefully!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 24

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I hate the number 24, and I also hate that I chose to number this series. I always have to look up what number I’m at. Happy last three weeks of school which always suck.

I just made the mistake of looking at my planner and that was quite upsetting. I have so much to do and so little time. Deadlines are rapidly approaching and the semester is dwindling away. I can’t believe it’s already April. I am a mixture of very ready for summer and I need more time in this semester.

Currently, my blog sucks and summer I think will be the cure. I want to do some more adventure posts, I want to do a weekend trip to the beach, at least one, and I really just want to go somewhere new too. I would also like to clean out the nearly 200 drafts I have piled up, see what’s worth salvaging and what’s worth deleting. I just have such an issue with deleting my writing. I don’t know why. I’m trying to make it through the semester without getting too anxious, you know because I have complete control over that (sense the sarcasm). The last two weeks were filled with middle of the night panic attacks and what seems to be a case of strep throat.

I want to be better. I always want to be better and I think that’s why I have anxiety sometimes. There will always be something wrong with everything I do. I think most people would think that’s great, always wanting to be better, but for me, I just get hung up on everything I’m doing wrong. I don’t know. Brains are weird.

I’m mentally exhausted and it’s Monday.

Monday tip, only look at Monday on  your planner so you don’t cry.

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 23

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It is late, I am tired, and I am writing this to further put off homework. I’m just not in the mood. I don’t have huge assignments due so I just really don’t want to do anything this week. However, that is not how college works and that just means I have more work to do for the next week so it can finally be spring break.

I’m not doing anything particularly interesting for spring break this year, I might go to NYC for a day, I hope I’m going to paint some pottery. I’m not sure what else really.  I’m just very excited to have a week off and not really have to worry about anything.

Newspaper elections are this week and I’m running for Editor-in-Chief, how cool/awesome/nerve-wracking is that?? I’m also officially done with my 8:25 class and that also means that I’m down to three classes a day. Thank God for half semester classes! There’s not much else going on in the school world. Everything is exhausting and boring and time consuming otherwise which is both very good and fairly  bad. I’m glad I didn’t go mad last week with the amount of homework I had to do. This week is catch up/get ahead week. Fingers crossed it goes well.

Who’s on spring break already? Who should I be jealous of most this week is what the questions should read. Hope you had a great weekend! Hopefully this won’t be the only post this week. I do have to catch up on my crafting blog though, so we’ll see. Leave suggestions of what you would like to read because my ideas have been dwindling again.

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 22

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Oh I know I just did one of these but I have a lot to say. Kind of.

Bloggers block has become my chronic condition. I have a severe lack of ideas recently. I just don’t know what to say but at the same time, I feel like I have a lot to say. I just don’t know. I’m stuck.

Today I participated in my first blogger chat on twitter and it was very inspiring. Tomorrow I’m going to clean my room and get my life together as tonight’s #theStumbleisReal chat was about  organization. Now I want to be organized. Like this is definitely something that I’m going to do because talking to like-minded people is something that really inspires me.

I want to be inspired to be a better blogger. I just wish I had ideas. Like I have my little calendar of ideas but by the time it gets to that date, I just don’t want to do it. Hopefully this week, I can plan some stuff out because I don’t have much due, but I’m just at a loss for ideas. Is there anything anyone wants to read?

I want to be a better blogger but I don’t want to be a different blogger and I think that’s where a lot of my struggles lie. I was a daily blogger and I think a lot of my identity as a blogger still goes back to that and the fact that I’m not anymore is still a struggle for me a lot of the time.  Like I don’t want to go back to that, because it’s hard. Like I give huge kudos to daily bloggers who produce actual content. I might try a month or so soon just to force myself to get in the habit of it again.

I’m having a blogger existential crisis. Help. Tips, please!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 21

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Have I said recently that I’m exhausted? The classwork is non-stop this semester which explains my unfortunate lack of posting. It’s a lot at once or like none, I just need to remember when it’s none to stay on top of it. But at the same time, when it there isn’t any homework to do there’s a million other things to do. Basically I’m very tired a lot of the time.

Let’s also talk about anxiety for a moment. I hate it. I hate when I’m fine for so long, then like it hits me like a ton of bricks. I just feel like right now there’s expectations of me from everyone and I’m afraid to disappoint people and then I have my own stuff to do and it leads to a mind overload. I also feel like it’s too early in the semester for this. I don’t know, hopefully it doesn’t stick around because I am too tired for this.

On a side note, I’m starting another blog for class, so I’ll be sharing that here too.  Once something is up, I’ll share the link. It’s a crafting blog and once the class is over, hopefully I’ll be in the habit so I’ll be able to do some more of those on this blog. However, I have to do 14 posts for that class, so there’s a chance that there will be less posts on here. I’m basically MIA anyway so maybe it won’t even matter.

I also have a little bit of a rant for this LNBM, Netflix on my iPad has not been working. It logs me out all the time, once an episode finishes I have to kill the app and sometimes login again just to get it to work. How am I supposed to hate Nurse Jackie if I can’t even watch the show?!

Speaking of Nurse Jackie, what a weird show. I’ve never hated the main character of a TV show so much. When I watched Gossip Girl, I disliked the main characters in a rotating fashion, every four episodes I didn’t like a new person, however, it wasn’t consistent dislike of anyone. Nurse Jackie, on the other hand, I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve actually liked her character. I don’t know if that’s how it’s supposed to be or if that’s just me. I really liked Zoey at first, but then all the sudden she’s a mini-Jackie. I just don’t know. Anyone else have an opinion?

What are your late night thoughts? Mine are: going to bed before my  mind literally explodes.

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 19

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It’s been officially over a month since I’ve done an LNBM, which means that bloggers block is fading away, we will see if that sticks once school picks up on Monday. Eek. However, because of that, I feel  like there hasn’t been a life update in a while.

I start classes on Monday, that’s insane. My break has flashed by in the blink of an eye, which is good and bad. Good because I hate waiting for things, bad because I didn’t get to do half the things I wanted to do. That’s partially because I got way more hours over break than I did over the summer, which is really good, but I’m also very tired.

Also, I can’t believe I’m going back to my school tomorrow. I spent all of last semester saying to my friends “oh I don’t go there” to be funny, but like now it feels almost weird to be going back. I’m afraid I’m not going to know anyone, which is stupid because my school has like just over a thousand students, so that’s only like 300 or so that I won’t recognize. However, I also switched buildings, which I realize I’m about to sound very stupid, but there’s like a whole new system I have to learn. I don’t know which showers to use, there’s going to be different people in the halls, it’s just going to be different. It feels kind of weird just walking into school in the middle of the year, I know it’s a new semester, it just feels strange.

I am so excited for a routine again. I have a babysitting job lined up for next semester. I just have schedule that will be generally the same everyday and I’m really looking forward to it. There’s something that I really look forward to about starting back up again. While there are certain classes that I’m really nervous about, there are also a lot that I’m really excited for. I’m glad that I’m finally done with all of my gen eds and I’m finally like moving up into just classes for my major and then classes I actually want to take.

I guess this post could have been called “back to school” but it’s past 7 pm so it’s technically LNBM. When do you go back to school? Some people are already back, some people still have a week or two, they took a week away from us, so I would be lying if I said I wasn’t a little upset, but maybe it’s for the best!

Okay, now it’s bed time, I’m leaving at 7 am tomorrow!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 18

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Well it’s been awhile since I’ve done some late night blogging, and really that’s all I have time for right now it seems. I go home in 12 days by the time I hit publish on this post, which is crazy, this semester has gone so quickly. However, I have 8 assignments due before them, I crossed off two today (thank goodness) but it’s stressful and I’m ready to be done with them all.

It’s weird getting ready to go home, it has gone by really fast, but I’m also ready to go home. I’ll miss the people and the city but I really miss my family friend back home, so I’m pretty ready to get home.

A lot’s going on and a lot is about to happen. I was away for a week, saw Molly, and now I’ve been back in Dublin ever since and I’m just trying to make the best out of my last few weeks here. I’m also getting ready to start 12 Days of Christmas on my blog! 12 days of daily blogging!  I do miss that sometimes, so this will either feed the fuel or leave me hungry for more, we shall see.

I’m also very excited for Christmas, I’m almost done my shopping. I love Christmas, I can’t wait to get home to wrap the presets. The things I’m most excited about going home are as followed: IHOP, wrapping Christmas presents, and having an oven. That’s obviously not including seeing everyone. I really miss IHOP, it will be breakfast on Sunday. Well maybe dinner because it’s so crowded Sunday morning and afternoon, you just have to time out the meal times. Also, I’m excited for American Netflix, some options are better here, but there are a lot fewer.

Let me rant about housing back home for a second. They won’t tell me who I can live with, they are literally just going to stick me with some random person in some random building which is absolutely absurd if you ask me. I’m so annoyed. It doesn’t make sense for them, and it doesn’t make sense for me. I can’t even fill out a form to see who I would be most compatible with. It’s just ridiculous. They wouldn’t let me save a spot, their recommendation for study abroad students is to live in language housing, providing no recommendations for people who are studying in an English speaking country. It’s really helpful. I’m annoyed.

Anyway, I’m beyond ready for bed. What’s going on in your life?

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 13

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So it’s not Late Night back in the US, but it is here, it’s actually so late that it just so happens to be my birthday!

Today I went to the National Leprechaun Museum, it lasted all of fifteen minutes since it was the annual Culture Night so they just seemed to give a little snippet of what the museum actually was. It was pretty cool, but the funny thing was the reason we got in was because my birthday was tomorrow at the time.

So yes, I’m 21 now, a real adult. I feel exactly the same. The weird thing was, I didn’t have anything I was really looking forward to about this birthday. Maybe if I was back home I would be super excited since I could legally drink, but I can already do that here. I’m not sure, but it’s a weird feeling.

I think I also need to switch the times on my blog since they’re set to times back in the US, I’m not sure how that all works with posting times and such. There are ways to post in the past which I’ve accidently done before so I want to make sure I’m not doing that again, let me know if you know if I’m doing something wrong. Time is just confusing to me.  I don’t know if I’ll ever understand it.

Classes start Monday and I still don’t have my classes. There seems to be a lack of communication or maybe it’s a lack of understanding on my side, I’m not sure. So that’s a little stressful, but I’m taking my birthday easy, stress free. I’m going to go shopping, find myself a birthday present from me, and go out to dinner with some friends that I met here. Take it nice and easy, no stress, no fuss, just fun.

I need blog post suggestions, I’m struggling again. Leave anything you want to see written in the comments!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 11

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So I tried to make a schedule, I just need to finish it and then I might be able to follow it. I don’t know though. I’m trying. I hoping once I have a routine that it will help my blog as well.

I was going to try and do some more blogging today, like scheduled posts, because they make me feel like I have my life together. However, I just didn’t do anything instead. Which is okay, but I feel like now, looking back on my day I should’ve packed more or blogged some or just should have been more productive in general. I hate that, but I guess that’s okay.

I’ve also been dealing with some shoulder blade pain which has made late night blogging tough because all I want to do is lay in bed, which is what I’m doing now, but it’s harder to blog in pain. I don’t want to complain too much, but it hurts.

My study abroad count down is officially into the single digits, I leave next Sunday and I can’t wait. This week I’m going to Hood to spend time with my friends, and thank goodness because I am going stir crazy in Pennsylvania and I need some distractions, also I miss everyone a lot. I was finally assigned my roommates, so that really just makes everything seem more real. I only have three more days of work left, which is crazy. When I get back from Hood Monday night we’re getting to crunch time and I can’t wait.

I don’t like that I feel like I’m wishing away my time, because you know that’s my most precious commodity. However, this summer has been long enough, things haven’t gone my way, yes, I’m aware that sounds bratty, but I’m ready to have a routine once again, I’m ready to go to class, and I’m ready to explore new places in the world.

Yes so this is tonight’s LNBM, not much too it haha. But definitely check out Wednesday’s post about trying to do better for the world and give me any advice you have!

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