These seem to be the only days lately that I can get right, updates. So this week was a rough one. I know I told you guys last week that I was struggling with my anxiety through the night into Sunday and then all day, well that didn’t stop. That went on until Thursday and it finally started calming down Friday, and I only had one yesterday, so I thought things were looking up until I got back tonight and started having them again. It really made my week long and I spent most of my time crying and wanting to sleep, but I couldn’t. I don’t know why they keep happening, but it’s hard to do anything when I feel this shitty. It was about mid week when I decided that I was going to go home after my Saturday seminar just because I needed to be with people who knew how to deal with me. Some other things that happened…. Well we had a delay on Tuesday which pushed my bio test back to Thursday, but then on Thursday the proctor never showed up, most people left after fifteen minutes because that’s the rule, I stayed for a half an hour because I’m a paranoid person. Anywho, I actually went out with a group of girls on Friday and had fun! We went to Bone Fish for dinner, it was okay. I mean I’m not the biggest seafood person so it was hard for me to find something I liked, but it was actually really fun. I went with some girls who live in my hall and it was nice to hang out with new people who thought I was funny. I don’t think too much else happened this week. If any of you struggle with anxiety, I’m sure you understand how hard it is to do any more than necessary to go out, so even meals were often spent in my room. This is so hard for me because I’m not trying to be antisocial, and people don’t understand that, if I could eat dinner with them, I would, if I could go to their rooms and watch movies, I would. I wish people could understand that. It took me almost all night to do things like homework because it’s hard to work through it. Like even my blog posts are taking me longer to do, it’s hard to work through it. So yeah, it’s been a long week.
Anyway, this coming week is basically going to be week of hell. I’m swearing a lot in this post sorry. I have four exams, a paper, and a lab packet due. I have no tests tomorrow, but lots of studying to do, I’m thinking my bio exam will Tuesday, but the professor hasn’t emailed us yet or anything yet, for sure I have a sociology test and I have no idea what to expect for that, and then Wednesday I have my Arabic exam which will basically be torture, and studying for that begins as soon I as hit publish on this, I also I have to hand in my final draft paper in Model UN and I did awful on my first draft so I’m not looking forward to that, Thursday comes with an Environmental Problems test and a confused professor so that should be interesting, and then FINALLY Friday I have to hand in a lab packet. Literally this week is going to be so long and I don’t have time for this anxiety so it better chill out. After lab on Friday I’m actually going home again, but this has been planned for a while. Lindsay’s home for different reasons so I’m getting coffee with her and hopefully Katie too on Saturday. I don’t think I really have anything else going on this week, so I guess that’s going to be it for this post.