Notebook Scribblings

I’m first of all really excited about this post I’ve been planning it for months. I’m the kind of person that scribbles in every corner of a notebook, I just fill in the margins while I’m taking notes, poems, thoughts, even stories. I write stories (not to be shared) and most of them start in the margins of notebooks. I thought for today I would share this little piece of my soul with you guys today. I really wanted to do this today because it’s also my 200th post! Here is a piece of my soul for 200 posts. Side note- does anyone know how to change fonts? Is that possible? Let me know please!

  •  I’m obsessed with cites, the honks of the horns, the blaring sirens, the rush of the workers, pushing and shoving their way to the top.
  • The feeling of rain is quite beautiful, nothing quite like it
  • There’s something surreal about an empty classroom. People fill in and the room begins to reek of wasted potential.
  • Tap. Tap tap. Tap. Tap Tap Tap. That’s one. Sleeves riding up my arm. That’s two. Squeeky desk. That’s three. Crinkly wrapper. That’s four.
  • I’ll be okay;
  • my tights have a run in them and it’s making me anxious
  • regrets lead to panic
  • there are few people in this world that appreciate all the things you do. only a few that love the smell of the rain mixed with the sound of city streets. very few will take their coffee just like you
  • times not quite a luxury
  • my life is one regret after another
  • in a room of 200 people I still feel alone
  • Things that make me think of you:lost socks, empty parking lots. Things that make me miss you: silent car rides, movie quotes. Things that make me glad I left: angry thoughts, pictures of betrayal.

So yeah these are odd and weird and random and some are slightly upsetting but these are my thoughts. Does anyone else do this? Thanks for reading!

XOXO,

Mary.

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Rolling on the Floor.

So yeah my schedule thing I made has not been working out lately, or my plan for that matter but that’s why I never committed to it 100% because I figured that might happen. Well anyway today/this week has just been one of those ones where all I want to do is roll around on the floor and whine because of life. My sleep schedule has been way off, and I’m just tired of everything and everyone. Like I don’t really know what to write about tonight so I’m just kind of going with the flow of whatever my fingers decided to type up. I want to go to bed already and it’s not even 10 yet, man. I think I’m just going to write a list of my thoughts because there’s far too many.

  1. I ate way too much chocolate this week.
  2. I really want blogger friends.
  3. I want to go on a run tomorrow.
  4. Will I actually go on a run tomorrow?
  5. I really need to finish that bio lab.
  6. Can I go to bed yet?
  7. Do I have to answer my text messages?
  8. How do I tell that girl that we would be really good friend without sounding creeping?
  9. How do I tell that boy I think he’s cute?
  10. That boy is really cute.
  11. Break up with her, you deserve better.
  12. I can’t believe Walmart didn’t have single tape refills.
  13. I can’t believe I forgot what I’ve been meaning to get every time I leave and I forget again. Oh bobby pins and clear hair ties.
  14. I really don’t want to go to that seminar on Saturday.
  15. I’m still really confused about the drama in and between two of my favorite fandoms.
  16. Oh God I can’t believe I just admitted I’m part of fandoms on the internet.
  17. I really want some fruit snacks.
  18. I can’t believe it’s only 9.
  19. What am I doing with my life.
  20. I need to stop snacking.
  21. I really need to pee.
  22. Why am I watching this video?
  23. It’s dumb.
  24. I need to blow up my flamingo again.
  25. I need to fill up my water bottle again.
  26. What am I supposed to wear tomorrow?
  27. Not real clothes that’s for sure.
  28. Why has my hall been so quiet today?
  29. I want to see Harry Potter again.
  30. I really wanted to read that book before I went to bed.
  31. Thank God I only had one panic attack today.
  32. Is it time for bed yet?
  33. How do you ask someone to be your penpal?
  34. HEY I WANT YOU TO BE MY PENPAL.
  35. I need to return those pants.
  36. Yeah that’s not how I thought they would look.
  37. I wonder how long this new layout will stay around.
  38. I need to peeeeee.
  39. Should I paint my nails or am I too lazy?
  40. Probably too lazy.
  41. Am I going to do my hair tomorrow?
  42. Probably not.
  43. Will Connor Franta ever notice me?
  44. Will Joe Sugg ever notice me?
  45. What is my hair doing?
  46. Seriously though, you can do better.
  47. Should I start posting poetry?
  48. Seriously need a haircut.
  49. I need to wash my sheets.
  50. I really want to go to Sheetz.
  51. I wish I could get verified on twitter.
  52. Still need to pee.
  53. Connor Franta though.
  54. Am I starting to like Connor more than Joe?
  55. What is life?
  56. Nope. Joe’s abs still win, sorry Connor.
  57. You’re a kid, stop rushing it.
  58. Welp, deep breaths.
  59. I have so many split end.
  60. That bio though.
  61. Is this making me seem shallow?
  62. Is there some sort of wolf outside?
  63. Nah it’s probably just a dumb ass already trashed from Thirsty Thursday.
  64. My back hurts.  A lot.
  65. I want to be supreme ruler of the world.
  66. I wonder if anyone is going to read all of these.
  67. Should I be done yet?
  68. I’m way too awkward for life.
  69. Why do people read my stuff?
  70. Should I have kept this a secret?
  71. Oh man I hope it’s over for you.
  72. That makes me a terrible person I’m sure.
  73. I want to live somewhere really cool.
  74. Can I go to bed yet?
  75. I need to get in shape.
  76. I need to find a new job.
  77. I miss Katie.
  78. I miss Lindsay.
  79. I miss Hannah.
  80. Thank goodness I’m seeing my family this weekend.
  81. Can I graduate yet? Seriously though.
  82. I have way too much on my mind.
  83. I need to find online classes for the summer.
  84. I want coffee.
  85. What color should I dye my hair next?
  86. Is tomorrow going to be another hermit day?
  87. I think my days are better spent alone, I’m happier that way.
  88. Where am I going to live next year?
  89. Who am I going to live with next year?
  90. I did really bad on that Model UN paper, I’m supposed to be good at that.
  91. Can I figure out how to be a professional blogger?
  92. Probably not.
  93. I need to shave.
  94. I want a relationship like Zalfie. That’s all I want.
  95. I have too many thoughts.
  96. Why do people read this nonsense?
  97. I wonder if influenster kicked me out of the voxbox I was supposed to get, I might cry if they did.
  98. I really need to clean my room.
  99. How do people look nice everyday? Will I have to do this someday?
  100. I need someone to entertain me.
  101. One hundred thoughts is probably too many.

Okay so there are my thoughts today. Sorry that it’s not a rant but I wasn’t feeling it, I don’t know my mind today. I’m beyond tired, incase you couldn’t tell. Don’t know why this is called rolling on the floor, my fingers just typed that up and seemed to like it.  So if you think you can answer any of these questions, PLEASE DO! Seriously they all need to be answered, so do it please, please, please. Thanks!

XOXO

Mary