Pause

via Daily Prompt: Pause

I saw the Daily Prompt for today was “Pause” and it ties in a little too perfectly with my life right now.

I keep hitting the fast forward button when I should be hitting pause. I shouldn’t be wishing my last six weeks of college away, yet here I am staring at my semi-daunting to-do list not wanting to do any of it.

I’m waiting for the end of the week, waiting to hear if I got a job or two, or none. But I shouldn’t be waiting for that moment. I should be savoring every moment. Cherishing the time I spend with the kids I watch because soon (well hopefully) I’ll be working full time and I probably won’t be a nanny anymore. I should be taking mental pictures of every meal with my roommates, every time I walk across the cherry-blossom filled campus, and just every little moment that I can hold on to, I should be holding on.

I’ve reached a point where I’m so focused on whatever’s next that I’m not pausing anymore, when really I should be pausing more. No more fast forward, just a nice hold down on the pause so it’s almost a stop.

My mom told me when I was starting high school that life would only get faster, I don’t know if I didn’t believe her, or just didn’t know what she was talking about, but she was right. I’ve been blogging for three and a half years, it feels like it was just yesterday I was cursing WordPress for being stupid (eh could’ve been yesterday) but my time online and in college has been flying by. I can’t believe that I’m graduating in six weeks, but here I am wishing I was graduating tomorrow just to get on with the next part of life.

I think that’s probably not just a me problem, even more of a societal problem. We’re so focused on the future, what are we doing this weekend, next week, the next deadline. We forget to focus on what is happening right now. Right now is what really matters. Maybe we all need to take some time and just pause.

So take a moment, pause, reflect, think about right now. Right now, I’m at work, right now, I’m at a decent place in my life, right now.

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My Future…

So guys something I’ve been thinking a lot about lately is the future.

What I really want to do is after college get hired by an NGO and go to places in Africa, the Middle East, and India to teach English and just help improve the quality of life for those less fortunate than myself. After I’m done travelling over seas, because you can really only do that for so long, I want to either work in one of the offices or just make a career out of blogging, which I highly doubt is possible.

Now many of you may be thinking- what about marriage? Children? Well the truth is I don’t know.  To be honest, I can’t see myself tolerating someone long enough to marry them. It takes a lot for me to make friends, let alone a boyfriend. Also with the whole kid thing, I don’t really want anything that big coming out of my… Well you know where I’m going with this. Anyway, if I ever have kids they will probably be adopted just because I don’t think I could do that. Also, I’d rather just watch my friends kids, like I could watch them, buy them cool stuff, and then leave. I wouldn’t actually have to always be responsible for them.  I could also be the cool aunt for my sisters’ kids.  As of now that’s kind of the plan. So yeah. Just thought I’d share this tidbit of information with you guys. What do you want to do with your lives? What are you college/life/career plans? Feel free to comment, I love to hear about that stuff!

Thanks for reading.

XOXO,

Mary

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Time to Grow Up :(

So today I came to the unfortunate conclusion that it is time to grow up.  I mean yes, I still am a freshman and college and yes I still have four years to go, however I am nineteen  years old and it’s time to start acting like I have my shit together.  Now I know most people start this at the beginning of the year and fail by October, well HA because I’m starting in October and I’m determined not to fail.  I want to dress nicer, and do my make up more, that way by the time I graduate I will  be used to it and I’ll do it for work in shit like that. So today I was going out and I bought make up! :O For those of you who know me- which none of you really do, this is a huge step because I never actually wear make up. I know that this is an odd time in my life to start things like this, but I don’t really know, like I just feel like I should be trying harder. I guess I always kind of complain that people don’t really pay attention to me, and maybe I think they will if I look nicer. But it’s true, the nicer you look the more attention people will pay you.  Now this is not to say I will not be putting my yoga pants to rest- no, I will still wear those just not everyday.  I’ll wear real bras rather than the simple sport ones I typically wear. I hope that people will start to take me more seriously, I  should’ve taken college as a fresh start from the beginning of the year, but I still have my chance now. So here’s to the fresh new (hopefully pretty) start of Mary.

Thanks again for reading, I really appreciate it! If you want you can follow me on twitter- @mrmilligan13, just send me a tweet and I’d love to follow you back! Love you guys so much!

XOXO

Mary