What am I doing here?

This seems to be a question that I have been asking myself a lot recently.  I don’t feel happy here.  I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it at all in any other of my posts but I am seriously considering transferring.  To be honest I was never really sure about coming here in the first place, it wasn’t really my first choice.  When it came down to choosing a school I had very few options. When I went looking for schools I had a very hard time finding ones I likes, so it came time to apply and I only applied to two. I got accepted to both, one with very little financial aid, and one with a lot.  I chose the one with a lot so I would be able to come out without debt.  I came back to spend the night here before I committed and I didn’t really feel at ease at all.  It was then that I started questioning why I wanted to go here in the first place, but there really wasn’t much I could do.  I could go to community college for a semester and transfer somewhere else in the spring and continue to look at colleges, but I didn’t want to do that because I needed to get out of my hometown, if I would’ve stayed there any longer I would have gone crazy.  I could’ve done that for a year as well.  One of the major reasons I was worried about doing that was because I didn’t want to end up moving into management where I worked and end up staying there the rest of my life. So I think I made the wrong decision and came to a school I didn’t like.

Up until this point I thought I was going to be fine, I would study abroad and hopefully I would be able to graduate a semester early and I thought I had made rather good friends here but now they seem slightly crazy.  For whatever reason I seem to get along with the commuters really well which sucks so besides my one commuter friend and the two or three others I seem to be making I don’t really have any reason to stay.  So now I’m applying to schools and I’m just gonna see what happens. If worse comes to worse I stay here and if I transfer I transfer.  I’m seeing it as if I have nothing to lose because I really don’t.  Feel free to comment with your opinions on transferring, especially if any of you guys have already done it because that would be awesome! Thanks for reading!

XOXO

Mary

 

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