Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 27

It has been quite sometime that I’ve ventured to this little corner of my blog, one of my previously most written in sections, I mean 27 posts is quite a few. Speaking of 27, Mary Fun Fact™ it’s my favorite number.

Recently, I have been very anxious again. I don’t know if it’s the boy stressing me out (yes of course he had to text me) or I drank too much this past weekend but I can’t shake it. It’s so annoying.

Besides the point, I have exactly two months until graduation. It’s absolutely insane. I cannot believe how quickly my time in college has gone. The past four years have flown by like no other. I remember when I finished middle school my mom was talking to my best friend and me about how quickly time was going to start going and I think about last year I realized how true that was. There’s a part of me who never wants to leave college, and then there’s a bigger part of me that’s very excited for the future.

This spring break was probably my most uneventful yet. I didn’t work, we had a snow day, and I went home for the weekend. However, other than my desire to be reading on a beach somewhere, I really appreciated all of the downtime I finally had. I probably should have done more school work than I did, but there’s a reason it’s a break.

I’m not sure what else really should be in here. I feel like there are a million things I have to say, yet nothing at the same time. I guess for now, this is my update.

What’s going on with everyone else?

Happy LNBM!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 22

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Oh I know I just did one of these but I have a lot to say. Kind of.

Bloggers block has become my chronic condition. I have a severe lack of ideas recently. I just don’t know what to say but at the same time, I feel like I have a lot to say. I just don’t know. I’m stuck.

Today I participated in my first blogger chat on twitter and it was very inspiring. Tomorrow I’m going to clean my room and get my life together as tonight’s #theStumbleisReal chat was about  organization. Now I want to be organized. Like this is definitely something that I’m going to do because talking to like-minded people is something that really inspires me.

I want to be inspired to be a better blogger. I just wish I had ideas. Like I have my little calendar of ideas but by the time it gets to that date, I just don’t want to do it. Hopefully this week, I can plan some stuff out because I don’t have much due, but I’m just at a loss for ideas. Is there anything anyone wants to read?

I want to be a better blogger but I don’t want to be a different blogger and I think that’s where a lot of my struggles lie. I was a daily blogger and I think a lot of my identity as a blogger still goes back to that and the fact that I’m not anymore is still a struggle for me a lot of the time.  Like I don’t want to go back to that, because it’s hard. Like I give huge kudos to daily bloggers who produce actual content. I might try a month or so soon just to force myself to get in the habit of it again.

I’m having a blogger existential crisis. Help. Tips, please!

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Being Back at College

After taking a semester abroad, I didn’t know what to expect when I came back to my home university. There’s a lot less excitement, a lot more classes, and it’s back to normal life. It’s been a real wake up call compared to Ireland.

Now, I am trying not to be one of those people who dwell on their experiences abroad and how much better they were than those in America. This semester won’t be any easier if I just keep looking back at what an amazing time I had while I was away.

Getting back into the swing of things at school has been busy. I came back on a Sunday, had four classes and work that Monday. Life is busy. I’m taking a lot of credits this semester since I dropped a class last semester. I just want to make up for it now rather than next year, honestly I just want the easiest senior year possible.

Friendship and professional relationship wise it was really easy coming back. I think it helped that I talked to Eric most days while I was away, and then over winter break as well. I didn’t feel like I missed anything in their lives to catch up on, he kept me in the loop for the most part. I kept in touch with my adviser while I was away as well, so there wasn’t a lot I needed to tell her either. I think my transition back has been rather simple for the most part.

The weirdest thing about being back is 1) not seeing my new friends every day, and 2) seeing people I’ve never seen before every day. I guess at a lot of schools number two wouldn’t really be that big of a deal, but I go to a very small school where you usually at least recognize everyone if you don’t know them personally, now I don’t recognize or know so many people because a whole class entered the school while I was gone, and it’s just really weird walking around. The first week was almost surreal, it didn’t feel like my school anymore, now I feel back to normal.

I’m glad to be back, I’m glad to be back in a normal routine and schedule. I hope that you’re all having wonderful semesters so far!

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Late Night Blogging with Mary: Part 18

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Well it’s been awhile since I’ve done some late night blogging, and really that’s all I have time for right now it seems. I go home in 12 days by the time I hit publish on this post, which is crazy, this semester has gone so quickly. However, I have 8 assignments due before them, I crossed off two today (thank goodness) but it’s stressful and I’m ready to be done with them all.

It’s weird getting ready to go home, it has gone by really fast, but I’m also ready to go home. I’ll miss the people and the city but I really miss my family friend back home, so I’m pretty ready to get home.

A lot’s going on and a lot is about to happen. I was away for a week, saw Molly, and now I’ve been back in Dublin ever since and I’m just trying to make the best out of my last few weeks here. I’m also getting ready to start 12 Days of Christmas on my blog! 12 days of daily blogging!  I do miss that sometimes, so this will either feed the fuel or leave me hungry for more, we shall see.

I’m also very excited for Christmas, I’m almost done my shopping. I love Christmas, I can’t wait to get home to wrap the presets. The things I’m most excited about going home are as followed: IHOP, wrapping Christmas presents, and having an oven. That’s obviously not including seeing everyone. I really miss IHOP, it will be breakfast on Sunday. Well maybe dinner because it’s so crowded Sunday morning and afternoon, you just have to time out the meal times. Also, I’m excited for American Netflix, some options are better here, but there are a lot fewer.

Let me rant about housing back home for a second. They won’t tell me who I can live with, they are literally just going to stick me with some random person in some random building which is absolutely absurd if you ask me. I’m so annoyed. It doesn’t make sense for them, and it doesn’t make sense for me. I can’t even fill out a form to see who I would be most compatible with. It’s just ridiculous. They wouldn’t let me save a spot, their recommendation for study abroad students is to live in language housing, providing no recommendations for people who are studying in an English speaking country. It’s really helpful. I’m annoyed.

Anyway, I’m beyond ready for bed. What’s going on in your life?

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I Missed a Lot

So I basically just took a week off and it wasn’t for a vacation, it wasn’t directly because of my anxiety, it was because in the past week I’ve felt like I’ve hardly had the time to breathe. I missed writing, I missed blogging. I missed the pages, I missed my comments, I missed just about everything but I didn’t have the time. I didn’t even have the time to sit down and read what other bloggers were writing. I also missed my fake two year anniversary and this whole website.

I’ve cried a lot this past week and it’s not about to stop. I’m not ready to say goodbye. It has not yet truly sunk in that I’m not coming back for eight months. I’m going to visit in the fall but it won’t be the same and while I’m so looking forward to go away and have new experiences there’s also the very small part of me that like to come out and cry about the little things I’ll miss around campus, but mostly my friends.  It’s just this weird thing that whispers to my heart “You only have one more semester with Eric” well that’s also him telling me that to make me upset, but other things too like missing classes with Logan. However, there’s the plus side of things like trying to see Molly while I’m abroad because she is too and meeting new people and making new friends and having this huge variety of experiences.

The year has wrapped up with countless group projects, lots of anxiety (more than the rest of the year combined probably) and finals are rapidly approaching. I spend a lot of my time consuming excessive amounts of caffeine that I know I shouldn’t have because of my anxiety but I choose to stay awake and get work done. I have hardly even started packing. Let’s just say that after the hell that was last week, this week should be a sigh of relief after everything is finished. Hopefully I get a job soon, still waiting on that one, but I’m ready for a break. Not ready for goodbye.

There will hopefully be another post or TWO (I know make a shocked look because I’m coming for you) this afternoon/evening. Sorry for going MIA if anyone missed me, I sure missed it here.

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Group Projects and Ending the Semester

Currently I have four group projects going on and a paper and an individual project all due next week. I have far too many responsibilities to be writing this but here are where the angers and frustrations go so they don’t get projected onto other people.

Group projects suck. I hate depending on other people for a grade, especially when I know people are unreliable. I feel like I have to do everything myself because even when I designate people can’t seem to do anything right. If you want something done right, you just have to do it yourself is really the best philosophy sometimes. I’m very frustrated with all of them and I feel the shutting out starting, like how I was last year and I would prefer that not to happen, but it probably will.

All of these projects and papers do however, signify the end of the year. Remember how excited I was last year? Not so much this year. I don’t have a job (I left there before I went to Florida in case I didn’t update you on that), I’m leaving people that I spend all of my time with and really care about this year, and I’m going to be home a lot longer this year. I know that makes me sound terrible to all the people at home, and yes I will enjoy seeing everyone at home, but I just know that this summer is going to be very different than last summer.

Everything just seems like it’s piling up on top of me and I’m stressed. Did I mention that I’ve had four phone interviews in the past three week and I’ve only heard no from two of them and nothing from the rest, and I have another tomorrow? There’s just a lot going on around me and I feel like I can’t get on top of any of it. I’m both completely ready and not ready for this semester to be over.

What is the stress on your end? Extreme or are you waiting for finals?

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I’M GOING TO IRELAND

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So I made one of my goals for the New Year to study abroad. Well I found out on Monday that I was accepted to study abroad in Dublin, Ireland next fall! This means that Mary’s Average Adventures is going INTERNATIONAL!

It took me a while to share not only because I had to share the news with some family and friends first and also because I was still getting used to the idea of it all. Like it’s something I wanted to do but something inside of me kept saying I would never get in so I really had no expectations of actually going but things worked out!

As I keep you guys updated on literally everything going on in my life- this was some major news and obviously this was the first thing I wanted to do with it but I had to tell other people first, you know family and stuff. I’m really excited and like still processing it all.

I’m really ahead in my major and I don’t know if I want to do a minor so I’m mostly taking electives while I’m away. This means talking to a lot of different faculty members and different department heads trying to get all of the right permissions for a variety of classes.

So yeah here’s just a little update. Also I quit that challenge because I hated it. Whoops. I got very negative toward it so I’m just going back to the few times a week now- that’s probably best for me anyway.

Is anyone else studying abroad now or in the future or even in the past? I hope everything from here on out works out but who knows- things happen. As of right now in six months I will be in Ireland! Crazy!

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The Mistake Hiatus.

So I told you guys I was going to Florida and before I went I was supposed to do the blog posts ahead of time so I wouldn’t have to worry about them. I guess it’s safe to assume I didn’t do them ahead of time and I also didn’t do any while I was there. It was a vacation. A much needed vacation at that.

So yeah I took four days off. Whoops. I think WordPress was concerned about me because I got an email from them this morning saying they missed me (I bet they say that to all the pretty ladies *insert winky face emoji*) so my guess this is also the longest I’ve ever been of the site so that in and of itself is almost an accomplishment.

I will tell you guys a lot about my vacation. I had a lot of fun, it started off my spring break with a positive step. I feel like a real college kid! I don’t want to get back into the swing of thing though. Like I really want to go to bed, I was in a car from about 4:15 p.m.  yesterday until about 4:40 p.m. today. We stopped for a long dinner, to sleep for about 3.5 hours, and made the journey back to school where my car was and then I had another two hours home. Then I had a ton of work to do for this week and before I go back to school.

Vacation is over and I’m back in reality. I will finish the 30 Day Post Challenge and share my Florida pictures with you guys as soon as possible!

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Finals Week and Going Home Preparation.

The holidays are rapidly approaching and it’s crazy. Hanukkah starts in two days and Christmas is in ten. That’s crazy. I feel like I have so much to do, it doesn’t even feel like Christmas even though presents are essentially done and wrapped. I think it’s because I still haven’t taken any finals, listened to Christmas music, decorated, or anything Christmasy other than wrap presents.

I have two finals on Thursday and my final project that I’ve already started and made good progress with. My goal is to have my room cleaned, laundry done, packing started and my literature project done by tomorrow night at 11. We’ll see what happens. My room is currently out of control because I’ve been working on Christmas presents and taking clothes out of the closet that I’ll need for being at home for a month.

I think I actually have visitors coming tomorrow. Not sure, but that would be a good little break from the stress of everything I have to do. I’m not really sure what I’ll do with them considering it’s 23 hour quiet hours which means that it’s supposed to be really quiet in the dorms so I can’t really bring them to my messy room anyway. It’s kind a far drive for them so I feel bad that I don’t know how to entertain them yet but it’s nice that I’ll see them since they are all already done with their semesters.

How did your finals go? Or are you studying a lot? I’m sorry this is kind of a throwaway post. This is the first day all year that I didn’t get on WordPress all day until I went to post this, or at least it feels like that. So I just feel like I had nothing to say, sorry!

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End of Semester Stress

Okay the semester for me is three more weeks, it seems like for everyone else it’s two. I laid out my plan for the next three weeks and there’s a lot I have to do. I thought I had more but for some reason I can’t read my schedule and I think that everything due way sooner than it actually is. I think it is my brain telling me not to procrastinate.

I just got back from Thanksgiving break and I got a good amount of stuff done, I still have a lot to do though. I have to write an article based on data taken last week and a “blog post” based on two very short poems. The blog post has to be longer than the poems which is just very difficult for me to do.

I am dealing with my stress by making lists and rewarding myself with simple things like chocolate and walks to the water fountain. My roommate doesn’t get back until tomorrow so I don’t have to feel bad about having the light on late and typing up a storm tonight. The stream of coffee and other caffeinated drinks for me is slow. Caffeine is a stimulant so when I’m already stressed it really doesn’t help my anxiety at all. I am trying to stick to a cup a day but I’m pretty sure I’ll end up breaking that during the next few weeks. I am very tired and it’s 9:40. I have a long way to go tonight.

I wish everyone luck with their studies and papers and everything professors are throwing at you the last few weeks of the semester. Reward or stress tips anyone? Ironically when I’m less stressed I’ll be making a list of tips so if you comment with some I’ll link you in the post.

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