I hate shopping/body insecurities/anxiety.

So today I went shopping, which should be fun, right? I’m a girl, I’m supposed to enjoy shopping. Well today it sucked. I have a very unfortunate family picture that needs to be taken Sunday and the color scheme is black and grey and I feel too fat to wear jeans but I don’t want to wear a dress and it’s turning into a thing and I’m annoyed about it. Well anyway this horrid shopping trip continued to get worse because as soon as I get the slightest bit worked up my anxiety starts to arise and I get uncomfortable and cranky. Like all of the sudden I was hot and I felt like my clothes were way to tight- and they weren’t, and I felt like I was about to cry and I did as soon as I was in the car. The worst part about getting all worked up like that is I can’t stop it now, like it’s four hours later and I’m still trying to calm down. I hate that as soon as I have one they come back in little spurts but the spurts are like, oh I can’t breathe, this sucks, or oh my body is shaking uncontrollably and I think I could rip my skin off. So sorry for the short post today but I can’t sit at the computer and think of words to write in a logical manner so this is kind of crappy today, sorry. Thanks for reading anyway!

XOXO

Mary

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2 thoughts on “I hate shopping/body insecurities/anxiety.

  1. Genesis January 10, 2014 / 8:03 am

    I hope things gets better for you and your anxiety. Have you tried drinking lots of water and sleeping throughout the day? That’s what I do when I have those extremely sad moments!

    Speculating Lass

    • Mary January 10, 2014 / 10:02 am

      Thanks! I do drink a ton of water throughout the day, but sleeping only makes it worse for me- the opposite of most people, but I need to be productive and if I sleep too much I get super stressed. But thank you for the advice!

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