To Those Who Love Me.

My school just released us off of lockdown after a shooting at a local high school. This really just stuck a cord and serves as a reminder about how precious life is I thought I would write to all the people in my life who love and care for me like my family and friends (real life and internet). Thank you all just so much.

Thank you for listening to me ask you a million times if you are okay or if I should be worried or just my million questions and comments that I say so that I know you’re safe so I can worry less. Thank  you for answering and responding and knowing that I mean it with love and not to be controlling. I’m not trying to be crazy and that I just really care a lot to the point of being annoying. I know my  constant questions and requests for someone to let me know that they’re safe and home are probably really annoying. I know that sometimes I nag like a second mom but it’s only because I care- so thanks for dealing with that.

Thank you for putting me at ease and reassuring me after every little freak out that I’m going to be okay and I don’t need to stress so much. Although it doesn’t always work you all try your best and that’s the comforting thing to me. It’s almost as if no matter how hard I freak out and lack faith in myself there always seems to be someone around who thinks that I have some sort of potential.

Thank you for laughing at my super lame jokes and pretending I’m funny. I know I’m one of the few people who find myself hilarious and a lot of people laugh at me rather than with me so thank you for pretending to laugh with me even when I’m not actually funny. If you genuinely think I’m funny thanks for that too, like you’re one of a few.

Thank you for being there when I need someone. I kind of covered this above but thank you for just being around when I need to talk about the stupidest stuff and listening to my rants about things that I only think matter. Thank you for being a shoulder to cry on when I need it- even though I don’t cry in front of people really.

Thank you for being honest with me. I know that I have the habit of being too honest sometimes but that’s because that’s how I want people to be with me. Thank you for telling me when I look stupid or my hair is wacky or I need to fix my eyebrows.

Thank you for lying to me and telling me that I look good when I look like a hot mess minus the hot part. Thank you for boosting my confidence when I’m feeling really low. Thank you for telling me that I don’t need to diet and workout when we all know it would hurt me to lose a few pounds.

Thank you for caring. Thank you for making sure I’m okay and not about to break. Thank you for making sure I’m safe when I often find myself in sticky situations. I can always count on someone to make sure I’m okay when I ignore too many messages from the group or an individual.

Thank you for motivating and pushing me to do my best. Thank you for not letting my negative thoughts bring me down. Thank you for telling me that I’m not stupid or dumb and I just didn’t do something right and I can fix it. Thank you for letting me know that I can do better.

Thank you for letting me be me. I know I’m weird and I say weird things and I do weird things and yet you all seem to still like me for it. Thank you for letting me be me and accepting me for that even with my little freakouts and snapping moments. You allow me to be weird and share my stories of my weird life and you still accept me and that’s pretty cool.

Thank you for not holding me to everything I say and knowing I’m a wuss when it comes to certain things. Thank you for not pressuring me or asking me to do something or telling me to do something because that’s what you would do in the situation- thank you for letting me figure some things out on my own.

Thank you for understanding. Thank you for realizing that sometimes my anxiety will get the best of me at really inconvenient times but you’ll let me be because you know I can’t help it. Thanks for not pushing me to do more than I can handle.

Thank you for being you. Thank you for not letting other people influence you and take over the person that love and care for. Thank you for taking care of yourself and putting you above me sometimes because that’s what people need to do.

So this is to all of the people who care for me and love me more than I deserve sometimes. I really, really appreciate you. Thank you so much.

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6 thoughts on “To Those Who Love Me.

  1. paperbackwriter21 February 4, 2015 / 11:06 pm

    Love you Mary. Glad you’re safe! You go, you super intellectual and philosophical bad ass. Keep on rocking’ <3

  2. tryingnovelty February 4, 2015 / 11:41 pm

    Oh my God, I seriously freaked out at the first sentence.
    These occurrences are tragic and frankly need to stop.
    I’m happy you are okay, and I am even happier to know you!

  3. gettingthroughanxiety February 5, 2015 / 7:48 am

    Mary,
    I’m sorry you had to go through what you did, I’m happy you’re safe. Even though it wasn’t at your school, I’m sure it was scary. I want you to know that I care about you very much and that if you ever need to talk about anything, I’m here for you. For the record, never say that you don’t deserve to be cared for. You’re an amazing person!

    I want to thank you as well, for being there for me when I’ve struggled.

    • Mary February 5, 2015 / 7:57 pm

      Thank you!

  4. Katie February 5, 2015 / 8:37 am

    Mary! Oh my gosh, I am so glad you are safe!

    As I’ve said before, it’s been an absolute joy to get to know you on this platform. I just want to take a second and thank YOU for being you!

    • Mary February 5, 2015 / 7:57 pm

      Yes, I am very thankful that everyone on campus was safe!

      Thank you so much, you’re a wonderful person!

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